Gravity

• Is it wrong trying to fight the gravity? 

Trying to go the other side from what I know exactly the world is telling me to?

Been missing this space for sure. Honestly, i don't know why it's sooo sooo hard to spare times to blab at here, but hopefully I could finish what I write this time. We all know, 2020 went unpredictable. Start with few nature's disaster followed by the coming of corona pandemic. Well, let's say that the phrase which said "man may make plans, but only God who decides" is not debatable. We all know 2020 supposed to provide many "pretty dates" they say, when people planned for held some special events such as, marriage, engagement, birth, etc. But, who knows? Allah turns it upside down. We are prohibited to do things and stuffs we used to do. from the basic into the most complicated things. 

2020 is somehow a special year, for me. It marks my quarter of century living as a human. They say, 25 comes with its quarter life crisis. But, what was it? I thought, every year bring us another problem to conquer, another self identity to discover, another feeling to feel, and another goals to pursue. And among those phase we need to pass, we all may and normally to feel lost and be bitter.

Every year, we are wandering unlocking our hidden destiny while our consciousness still telling us where we want to go, but the reality doesn't always goes the way we want it and that's when the crisis come. That's when we feel lost and upmost from our own gravity. Then, asking about our existence.

By the way, nothing much happened on my 25's birthday. Beside, we were all in self-distancing mode. I didn't even celebrate it with my family. I bought my own birthday cake two weeks after it. I bought a cheesecake as a self-appreciation. I didn't even light my candle because I couldn't find the lighter at my own home- haha. By the way, my family has been moving to Malang since the beginning of Corona started. So, my home at Surabaya temporarily empty. I rarely go there and mostly stay at Gresik due to the regulation.

Well, that's all I can tell about the birthday. 

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• "Do not chase people. Be you and do your own thing and work hard. The right people who belong in your life will come to you, and stay."