30.12.13

Yay!

Well, today was another great and tiring day for me! I slept only three hours this morning and now, I just got home at 11 PM for accompanying my mom to meet up with her friends. So what's up today? Bheuh! today me and some of my friends (icha, egar, yunita, ika, bella, and tio) went to Car Free Day Darmo. It was a sudden plan from Egar. I got the info from Icha, she asked me to join them vending at CFD, and they need me to help them bringing the goods from Icha's house to Darmo. I thought it was a good chance to get a new experience, so I agreed. Alhamdulillah, Although, we got there too late, we still made to sell our goods! And it almost sold out! :) 

Actually, I wasn't feeling pretty well, since it was crowded in there. but It was my first time, joining Car Free Day at Darmo since it's far from my home, so I had a good time this morning :3 There are many moments that i could see while I was there. I met some of my high school's friends. I also saw a Sugar Glider, from KGSI (a community of its lovers) And what's most important is.. Todaay, I learnt how hard was it to earn money. How 3000 could be so so precious.. That's why we should be grateful for every rezeki that Allah has given to us :) 


thanks to Tio for capturing us :3

Owner of the day
P.S: Good job! to Icha and dedek Faiz, for making the Sari Dele. And thanks to Egar, for the invitation! Looking forward for next time! Ok, that's all for today! Happy Monsterday all. Hoaaam~

28.12.13

last saturday in 2013

Hello, Rizka's coming again :3 rajin banget kan aku ya :3 Ngepost terus :3 maklum lagi kurang kerjaan, wkwkwk duuh nggak sadar diri :)) padahal tugas asistensi masih terlantar ._. Gppa wes, nanti malem kan aku ngerjain kok ;) (oh dunia harus tau gitu cil --) 

I don't have much things to do today, because daddy need to work, my brother isn't at Surabaya, and I don't have a boyfriend :3 (lhoh apa hubungannya cil :p)  so I just spend my Saturday at home. Gonna share you what I've done today! Yuk cekidot ;)

1. Cycling
Have I ever told you how much I like cycling? :3 Yes! I do really love to go cycling. Usually I do this routine every Saturday and Sunday morning. But I haven't doing this quite long, because those busy weeks of school, so I'm so happy today cause finally i could go cycling :3 I have my usual track, Tenggilis and Pakuwon City. I don't go too far, because my parents don't allow me go further since I'm a girl and I go cycling myself, so they think i should take care :3



2. Remake my reminder board :3

before

what you need :3


emm gimana yaa :3

iseng :3

after (89% done)

27.12.13

Friday


Thanks God it's Friday yay ! Finally I woke up earlier this morning :') My normal sleep hours is back, so so happy.. Currently doing my task with friends in this early day, wish it was a good sign that I would be back productive again in days on :p

**

Gonna continue my last morning post. Yesterday, My friday was keep going on. so I just arrived at home from Malang this morning, for taking my brother back there because he'll have an exam today, i have no idea how my brother's feeling to have an exam on Saturday? A bit suck, i guess ckck.. Beside, we took my brother back to Malang, me and my family were coming to my mom's friend's house first. It placed at Lawang and the weather there was really nice. The house has a big yard and good view, it's a 1948's building, so vintage and classic. Such a comfy place to relieve all stresses. After had chit-chat, we were treated by  a super delicious dinner. I ate much enough (as always) :P. My mom's friend really had an unique family, he has ten siblings, and all of them are really like to make jokes even though they're no longer a teenager :)))) (they're already 50-68 years old) 

So..last night me and my family just couldn't stop laughing to hear their stories =)) Not only told numbers of funny stories but they also gave my family some 'wejangan' since they're older than us so they already had more experiences in life, and it really worth to hear.

From them, i can learn so many things.. I see, how beautiful is the togetherness in a family. Since we're growing up together with them, from a tiny baby until insya' Allah being a grandmother / grandfather (aamiin), they're the ones who know our good and bad, then still accept and love us, endlessly. they're the ones who always gonna be there when we're up or down, when we're happy or sad, when we're holding too much or angry, the ones who's gonna catch us whenever we fall. Place where we could be who we are. No pretending, no drama, it just a place where we can simply be ourself.. 

And place where we can always calling it, home.


“Home is where you are loved the most and act the worst.” 
― Marjorie Pay Hinckley

Yes, even though we ever argue each other, so many times about so many stuffs, in the end we also know how to forgive each other. Look through and see how deep deep in my heart, i know that how big is my love for my family, they're irreplaceable, they're the numero uno. they're  ones in the whole universe, and I'm so thankful to Allah SWT for sending me such guardians in this earth, one pack with...their goodness.. their flaws.. their loves.. and their spirits..

15.12.13

Hazy, 15th

your skin..
yeah your skin and bones..
turn into..something beautiful..
you know...
you know i love you so..



I'm about to cry :'(

Go discover some new places

image

Heyhoo! Feeling good after waking up, Alhamdulillah still got a chance from Allah SWT to breath the air again today, Wish everyone is in a good health of course ;)

Well, I’m so thankful that I’ve been having good pals around, they’re my college’s friends, tehee. I know that we are so kemriyek most time, but I swear ya, we are good kids. we are just have some trouble on holding to not laughing :)) We already had good times together indeed! 

We have schedule on  every Wednesday to try some ‘kuliner’ in our city, Surabaya. In order to not bored for bringing lunch from home everyday. Though, we just only did it for couple times (looking forward for next times ahead yeayyy!), I already had so much funny times with them.

Like… anytime I’m hanging around with them, I could be somebody close to I am. Talk what I wanna talk. Sad. Badmood. Sick. Angry. Makes some jokes till we can’t stop laughing so hard. Shares some stories. Singing with my…ehm..bad voice. Study together. And travel to some places.




On Wednesday two weeks ago, We went to Aiola, since some of us coming from different cities, so they have not been here before. We bought different foods in there, there are Gado-gado, siomay, batagor, mi pitik, nasi goreng, es campur, etc. You only need to pay less than Rp 15.000 to get those yummy meals plus the drink! :9 By the way, we also bought two glasses of chocolate milk and then we drank it together. It’s so ROTFL (even mbak-mbak yang jualan pun ngetawain kita saking kordesnya) Moreover, it’s only a glass that contains of 1 liter milk in there, but there were 7 straws inside, and we must share it for 12 people -_- 

On Wednesday weeks ago, me, derai, icha, and bibip went to Soto Ayam Lamongan Cak Har on Jl. Arief Rahman Hakim. By the way Soto is a kind of soup which colored yellow contains of slices of chicken, white noodle, rice, fried union, and koya :9 Best to taste in warm condition and don’t forget to eat them with Krupuuk ya! :9 By paying Rp 14.000 you could felt awesomely full after ate them! since the Soto is really yummy many and …. presented with so many koya zuurrpppp, haaaa heaven of the world ~

on last Friday we went to House of Sampoerna because Derai haven’t gone there. then we continued our journey to Hotel of Majapahit :D Such a beautiful historical place to visit!

House of Sampoerna (image source: google.com)
House of Sampoerna is an exhibition place of cigarettes producer in Surabaya. Presenting some old photos, furniture, kinds of tobacco, and marching band. There also featured with a digital computer to see videos, photos, and information. On the second floor, there is a place for buying souvenirs and watch the process of cigarette’s making lively! :D

But what most attract us to go there that afternoon is to try the “Surabaya Heritage”, short journey to see some tourist destination in Surabaya by taking on a bus. That friday the schedule written going to Kampung Kraton. Cak Durasim, and City Hall. but sadly we didn’t catch the departure times. Huhuhu. Maybe next time! ;)

Last one is…*drums roll*

The Hotel Majapahit's beautiful view in advance (image source: google.com)

Hotel Majapahit Surabaya \m/ One of historical place that still treated well in Surabaya. A hotel where the Holland’s flag teared by Arek-arek Suroboyo accident held. Place that made Surabaya being well known as The city of heroes :) Providing a view of building in Holland’s era. Old yet so classy ;) You could see some nice parks with fountains in the center of it while walking on its classic corridors. Like..you can treasuring back to the past B) Especially when you enter the rest room…uh baby though it feels a bit creepy..you certainly could feels and see how’s the Holland era in there..hrrrr :))

P.S You don’t need to pay anything just to see how’s inside the Hotel, free parking beybi :)

copied from: my tumblr

14.12.13

Letting Go


Losing someone in our life may the most pathetic things  that should happens in our life. Whether that person's going into the other dimension from us or going into another place and different times from we placed, which we apart from them. I believe and I know that it must be a hard time, when we should learn to let them go, holding on thousand memories that we had with them back then, alone.

well, actually, Alhamdulillah i haven't properly losing someone that really close to me, in my life. But I know.. soon or late, one day, myself or people that i love, one by one, will leave this world into the afterlife and back to their Owner. they're now still alive and I'm so thankful to Allah SWT for giving them long ages so they can stay here with me. And i just can wishing them all the best, healthiness, long ages, and happiness..

Now, I understand. When I'm riding at the night, remembering how my life was and thinking how my life is. Yesterday i had this..and that.. and now I don't have this.. and that.. From those little things I could take summary that there's nothing immortal in this world. Everything's just a temporary things. All that we have is only a deposit. Since it was a deposit, of course, one day the Owner's gonna take it back.

Lost is an usual thing that happens in reality. The hard thing is to let it go. Especially when what we lost..is something that really precious to us, something that we love the most, it's like a 'limited edition' and there's only one in the world :'(

For me, lost is a momentum that we never know what influence that it may bring in our life. waking us up? dropping down us? making flat our life? making an unfair world to us? Losing somebody/something could bring us closer to our Maker or further from Him? Those all depend to ourself. How smart are we to take a summary of its every accident. If we do believe that everything happens for a reason, i believe, slowly we're gonna accept it and judge it wiser about that thing. Lost can make people like.. they have soul inside their body, but they don't feel alive. Going everywhere with an empty sight, thinking about thousand old memories, beautiful but pseudo. or the way, keep living although their souls ever scratched and banged with hurt. But here they are, it's life, if there's a beginning there's gonna be an end. Morning comes not just a sign that it's already 7 AM we need to get up and go for school. No, it's not. Morning comes to remind us that after every darkness, insya' Allah there will new light rises. And use that for a reason to us, a reason to keep moving on in this short life..

Sadness is humanitarian. Cause Allah gives us a felling to can feel each other. Loving, hating, caring, respecting, adoring, etc. But till when, a grey sky's hanging above your day? Maybe they do refresh you with thousands beautiful memories back then. Okay, for some couple times, that's ok. Because, memories are a black-white film that formed how we are today. But remember, Allah makes this earth with successive seasons, hazy, rainy, sunny, snowy. So we can learn from them.. Never ungrateful for everything that you've got or you haven't yet today.

Life is a balance.. :)
Life is keep spinning.. :)
Life is a mystery.. :)
But don't forget.
Life is a gift that Allah gives to us..
And a gift must be a beautiful thing to we have :)
Maybe not right in this time, but eventually.

"You will never know how hard is it to let go of something until you feel it yourself"
For everyone that just lost somebody/something. for everyone that must live without them that used to be there. There are still many stories that you haven't read. There are still many blank pages that you haven't written with your life's stories. Never stop smiling for them that used to make you smile.. :)

sealay apa seh?

sering banget dibully sama anak kelas, apalagi anak-anak cowok, gara-garanya, gak tau, perasaan ya biasa aja, masa aku ini dibilang alay, huft banget kan? =)) gak cuman di kuliah ini aja se. dulu SMA juga, keuwingeett ngettt banget yang paling menyayat hati =))

Jadi, waktu kelas 12 SMA itu, pelajaran bahasa Inggris, dapet tugas dari guru tercinta, Mr. Sugeng, buat main 'bee-keeper' gitu. Jadi tiap anak di kelas, maju ke depan, ambil kertas yang isinya, siapa 'bee'nya kalian. (lhoh sek sek btw yang jadi bee ku sapa ya?) =)) nahh terus. setiap pertemuan kita itu disuru bikin surat gitu buat bee gitu. terus pertemuan lanjutannya suratnya dibaca di depan. sekaliaan be'e ada yang wes bisa nebak siapa bee keepernya sapa juga gpp.

nhah terus itu temenku, Kharis, mbaca suratnya dari bee keepernya dia depan gitu kan, ada kata2 "hehe" "yaaw" nya gitu, nyampek Kharisnya mbaca nya sambil ngakak2, terus pas sudah selesai mbaca, ditanyai sama Pak Sugeng,

"do you know who's your bee keeper?" 

terus lhoo, gak cuman Kharis yang jawab, Reggy, Antony, gatau dari zona degradasi pokoknya, isoke langsung, "sopo maneh seng alay, acil laaaaaaaaaaaahhh" nueges. nguetek. pasang muka menuduh.
wkwkwkwk mangkelin caak =)) lek seng alay-alay ae kok langsung aku =))
Padahal lho guduk dan beneran bukan aku :')

Gak cuman itu. Pas, udah kebukti bukan bee keepernya, aku langsung dijadiin tersangka kasus lain di kelas. Jadi dikelasku itu, ada seorang anak, yang......ya 'begitulah'. yang.....'digituin' sama anak-anak kelas. Yaah, biasa lah, di kelas, pasti ada aja kan anaknya.. =)) lahkok, pas udah tenang-tenang ndak jadi tertuduh dari bee keeper Kharis yang nulis surat dengan beberapa kata alay, masa aku dituduh jadi bee keepernya anak itu :'(

Mesti kalo ditanya pak Sugeng,
"siapa yang jadi bee keepernya *tiiittt* nanti temui saya ya?"
Mesti anak zona degradasi rame dewe
"Kon yo cil?"
"Cil ngakuo cil"
"Cil ikuloo cil, istirahat, ojok lali."

Mangkelin caak, mesti lek tak tanya, "lapoo se kok mesti aku"
"lhah kamu lak yang sering duduk sama dia..............trs omong2an"
Wkwkwk ancen seh, lhah yaapa, aku mesti gadapet temen duduk, gara2nya mesti dateng mepet2, mbasio ga dateng mepet yaa mesti jek duduk kambe dee se, lhah terus masa leek duduk sebangku ga tak ajak ngomong, hngg hnggg kan aku anak bangsa yang baik berbudi luhur. :') kita semua kan teman, apa salahnya broo :))

padahal bisa diliat sendiri, kalo yang di baris paling belakang lebih alay :))

ugh jadi kangen :'(
                             
***
Nhah lahkok ternyata, masa tertuduhku sebagai orang alay nggak berakhir seiring aku lulus dari SMA, namun berlanjut juga di bangku perkuliahan... masa perasaan aku ngmg biasa-biasa aja, "ooo alaay" terus ancen seh, beberapa akhir ini, aku dtt punya tata bahasa baru, ancen seh, tak akui, iki alay sajane, tapi niat kami itu baik, supaya kita semua belajar peka :))

jadi, hmm udah pernah lihat bayu skak? sebenernya aku dtt ga terilhami dari bayu skak se, emang dulu kalo ga salah pas OK2BK jurusan pernah disetelin tapi yauda lupa sih, nhah jadi misalnya ak mau bilang,
"aku kebelet pipis, temenin aku poo"
itu bakal jadi
"a k p, t a p"

=))
gara-gara semenjak ini :'( ciyus peek, aku sering dikatain, apalagi ambe doyok iku, jarene alay. mesti dikatain, "ohhh alay komunity, tak join pooo" nggak cumn aku se, derai pisan =)) jadi keleng ceritanya derai, kan pas itu aku sama derai lagi sibuk ngerjain asistensi di pojokan kelas sama le dawas, terus jare iku, derai iku denger, ono seng celuk celuk "lay he alay he alay" tapi ga ngerti iku gawe sapa, eh lhakok pas derai noleh samping, doyok iku lagi lihatin ke arahe derai, =)) terus bertemu pandang, terus doyoke bilang
"ohhh ngeroso yo mbak?"

=))
tapi lhooo beneeran, semenjak pake bahasa gituan, kita sekelas makin punya chemistry (alah lah) satu sama lain, lumayan kan efisien pita suara mas broo. tapi pernah nih, kebiasaan bertata bahasa seperti ini kebawa waktu ada kelas. Seminggu yang lalu, di hari Jumat, salah satu dosen sedang mengajarkan mata kuliahnya. Aku pun memfokuskan pendengaran, ketika beliau selesai menjelaskan, aku menyeletuk "y", maksudnya ya aku paham, dan ternyata cuman aku yang nyeletuk -_- jadi "y" ku terdengar keras. diantara keheningan kelas. Dosenku pun membalas, "Apa y? Kok y?" kemudian mata anak2 sekelas berpusat ke aku =)) termasuk ibunya dan diguyuin, --

=))
yang paling hits akhir-akhir ini, dipanggil "btw" sama anak2, duh padahal yang suka ngmg btw itu nggak cuman aku, lagipula lhoo yang ngilokin aku "btw btw" itu juga sukanya ngmg pake "btw". duh resek kok emang anak-anak iki :'( udah gitu sekarang ga cuman anak cowo, bahkan anak2 ceweknya juga, vio iku apa maneh -_- "lhoh ada btw"
plis itu mlt bgt guys.

PUHUHU emangnya aku segitu alay nya yooh?

10.12.13

Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)



So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring 

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now 
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had 

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely 

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better 

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had 

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right 

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring 

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted 

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

1.12.13

Penumpang Ilegal

Berawal dari curhatanku ke teman-teman, “eh aku pengen ikut liat ke Malang” di titanic masjid kampus, eh terus sama anak-anak, Ica, Derai, Jatu, Bibip kok kebetulan kok kebetulan ya pas, ada mas Fat nongol dari parkiran depan masjid -_- di panggilin mas Fath.
“Mas pet mas Pet ini lo rizka mau ngomong” –
 “opo?”
Terus akunya ga ngmg lah, kan sungkan –
“gak mas gak”

Eh terus pas jam-jam sore lagi sibuk dan bingung2nya ngurusin tugas dan asistensi pemetaan, eh ketemu mas Fath,
“ada apa Riz?”
“Gkpapa mas, tadi itu lo anak-anak guyon, mau tanya kalo aku mau ikut ke Malang boleh ta gak?” =))
“Lhoo gkpapa ikuto, sek sek” terus masnya ngeluyur ke Pengajaran, ywes tak kira udah di anggep guyon lhah kan emang guyon, tapi ya pingin emang tapi nanya nya guyon tapi pinginnya serius haha

Terus udah jam berlalu, ya udah ga kepikiran sama sekali tentang guyonan tadi pagi, udah capek2nya bikin laporan praktek di hari Jumat, evaluasi mektek dibagi, nilai evaluasi IBTS dipajang di mading2, hahaha bener2 cobaan ya hari Jumat kemarin itu, gak dikit anak cewek pada kenak PMS, jadi melan, naik turun moodnya gara2 itu semua, tapi untung semua kegupuhan ini ujung2nya diakhiri tawa dan guyonan rame2, udah gitu Cupita di bully huwahaha, =)) thx!

18.00 Waktunya rapat angkatan di ITS Pusat... ga kebayang badan “Mblengesh”nya uda kaya gimana. (Red: mblengesh merupakan bahasa osing dari kumus-kumus). Sempat kena super trap sama Bibila maunya lihat Andrew Garfield main basket..eh pertandingan ditunda.. emang ga baik mengkadali teman sendiri ya bib, nahlo =))

Ndeprok rame2 depan Masjid Manarul, lumayanlah, kerasa lebih nyatunya antara D3 dan D4, well seperti kata kakak2 angkatan, kita gak ada namanya d3 dan d4, kita satu 2013. Semoga aja bisa segera menyatu aamiin aamiin!

Jam 20:11 dapet sms dari Ica, katanya rizka boleh ikut hwehehehe =)))) terus bingung2 dewe, kan padahal bercanda, kan ga ngerti dibolehin apa gak sama ortu, kan padahal tugas dan evaluasi dada-dada di depan mata, kan padahal sungkan soalnya sebenernya aku ndk berhak gitulooo ikut ikut. Terus setelah galau2 sendiri eh malaah ada telp masuk =))) yaudah terus rizka nanya mama boleh ikut apa enggak, ternyata mama ayah ngijinin yaudaah kalo uda dapet restu dari orang tua ngerti sendiri kan rasanya? pertanda baik. 

akhirnya fix, aku memutuskan buat ikut.

Ohyaa, rizka juga bertemu zizi lho malam itu.

Jam 21:30 sama anak2 habis rapat angkatan makan2 rame, udah ITS gelap banget, berasa jalan di hutan, udah mobil kaya begitu, hawanya kaya begitu, feelnya dapet banget: berasa mau uji nyali. hahahahaha, friday night banget. jam 22.30 baru nyampek rumah, dan 23:56, tidurlaaah saya zzz grok grok heheehe

Besok paginya, hari keberangkatan tiba. Sungkan dalam hati makin kerasa, tapi yah udalah disyukurin aja, nemu temen yang dapet undian berhadiah juga kok :p tapi sedih banget, masa dari 2 yang ilegal, yang di bully cuman aku doang :-( bikin makin sungkan ajaa =))

Udah pagi-pagi baru duduk...
"Lhoo riz ngapain disini? Kamu siapa? Peserta bukan, panitia bukan, pemenang bukan, oooh penyusup"
lakyo jleb...jleb...jleb... =)))))))))) "Nanti *mainin jari* (red: uang) jangan lupa"
"Lho onok rizka, lapo riz? meloki mas Fat ta?" -_- 

Udah setiap pembagian makanan..
"Rizka,ndak dapet lhoyaa, nanti jangan lupa *mainin jari* itu ngabisin tempat" =))

Pas mau turun ke hotel...
"Rizka...nanti tidur bis lho. kamarnya gak ada soalnya. Oh.. ada se, kamar mandi, pilih mana?"

setiap ada absen langsung sedih sendiri, "ah pasti gak dipanggil" tapi ternyata enggak lhooo, rizka juga dapet panggilan abseen lhoo, cuman dua kali dari beberapa-rapa kali, tapi gkpapa deh =))

Ternyata susah ya hidup jadi orang ilegal.

ikut dukung tim KJI ITS. lihat pameran jembatannya. dapet temen baru. ketemu temen lama. di bullyjadi the most kemriyek penumpang di bus!hahahah. banyak lah banyak pengalaman dari perjalanan tadi. First trip sama diploma sipil! And I really did have a nice trip. Bercanda gak ada habisnya. Kerasa kekeluargaannya sama anak2. Thanks for the chance that given to this "illegal" passenger :') So thankful. Haven't tell you guys about the KJI and KBGI events since I need to study for tomorrow evaluation. So sorry, next chance InsyAllah.

Semoga tahun depan bisa jadi pasukan yang bawa nama jurusan ini. Semoga pengalaman dan ilmunya  bisa bermanfaat terus buat kita semua kedepannya, terutama aku. Sekali lagi, makasi kesempatannya :') Ini semua hanya awal perjalanan, semoga inspirasinya terus membakar sampai 4 tahun kita menempuh takdir bersama. 

Hope these photos could tell you more about my trip. 

Istirahat siang di UB


KJI BAJA

Songgo Langit ITS

politeknik bandung

otw BNS

BNS, maba 2013

D4 nonton D4

sama ica

gaul dikit (eh apa alay dikit ya?) :P

Btw, happy birthday to my loved one, bibila! Wish you all the best, here from us. Sorry cant send it to you on time since we're here lack of signal and out of the battery. So hope you'll forgive us by this video!! Hbdddddddd!!! xoxo


see you all next time. Back to real life mah ini judulnya!! Semangat hari Senin!

28.11.13

The light of my life



Semakin berkembangnya zaman, akal dan daya pikir manusia yang kini ada pun tentu saja semakin maju. Tingkat mutu pendidikan yang semakin tinggi, sistem yang menuntut kita sebagai “anak jaman sekarang” untuk menjadi  kreatif dan kreatif... berpikir dari yang belum tiada agar tiada, ataupun sebaliknya dari yang ada menjadi ditiadakan, dari  membuktikan yang sudah ada, apakah benar-benar ada? Dan yang lain-lain. Apalagi di sebuah sistem yang didominasi sebuah paham ‘liberalisme’ ataupun ‘demontrasi’ dimana keutamaan sesuatu yang dinamakan hak manusia diagung-agungkan, banyak menimbulkan cabang-cabang pikiran baru. Tidak hanya mengenai teknologi, ilmu pengetahuan, namun juga pandangan hidup, agama misalnya.

Teringat sebuah percakapan saya dengan ayah saya bertahun-tahun lalu. Kita berdiskusi tentang bagaimana Allah sebagai Tuhan yang saya percaya di mata penganut agama-agama lain, Sampai obrolan kami berujung ke pertanyaan-pertanyaan yang lebih dalam dan saya rasa, pertanyaan-pertanyaan itu akan memiliki jawaban  yang tidak bisa di rasionalkan. Contoh kecil, "gimana ya caranya Allah mengatur alam semesta ini?" atau gausalah memikirkan tentang semesta, coba tanya "Kok bisa ya aku ada?"

Menurut saya, itu adalah hal sederhana yang bisa membuat kita sadar dan akhirnya mengakui kalo, harfiahnya di dunia ini pasti ada suatu zat yang lebih luar biasa dari kita dan memiliki kemampuan jauh dari batas kemampuan kita, yang biasa kita sebut sebagai Tuhan. 

Saya pernah bertanya-tanya sendiri, kenapa ya, kalau bayi yang baru lahir itu adalah fitrahnya seorang manusia, masih bersih dari dosa, kenapa ga semua bayi itu lahir dengan agama Islam? Karena dalam Al-Quran pun disebutkan bahwa Islam adalah agama yang benar di mata Allah dan Allah adalah yang menciptakan mereka.

Apa karena, kita berada dalam sebuah sistem, dimana agama merupakan warisan dari orang tua, agama merupakan turunan, mengapa bayi-bayi itu tidak memiliki hak untuk memilih agamanya? Apa karena mereka lahir belum bisa bicara? Lalu, tidakkah bayi-bayi itu begitu malang?

Kembali lagi ke percakapan saya dengan ayah saya, terakhir kali saya berbicara dengan beliau, ayah saya berpesan, "Jangan menanyakan hal-hal yang kamu tau jawaban nya itu ngga akan kamu bisa temuin. Tau kan? jaman sekarang, ngga sedikit orang yang memilih untuk tidak beragama, atau mungkin membuat aliran-alirannya sendiri. Ya karena seperti ini awalnya, mereka gabisa menemukan jawaban dari pertanyaan mereka sendiri."

Di Indonesia sendiri, ada lima agama yang diakui, bahkan keberadaan agama begitu di junjung bahkan sampai ada di sila pertama pancasila. Karena, memang, kita hidup harus ada pondasi nya, yaitu agama. Dan tiap agama-agama memiliki tuhan, surga, dan neraka nya sendiri. jadi, apakah berarti, Tuhan yang mengatur alam semesta ini juga lima? surga yang kita tuju berbeda? neraka yang dituju berbeda? Bisa bayangkan, sebuah sistem diatur oleh lima pemimpin? Apa yang kira2 terjadi? Pernah lihat film Percy Jackson? Tau kan, disitu diceritakan ada beberapa dewa yang masing2 memiliki konsentrasi yang berbeda? Ada petir, air, dan sebagainya. Dan itu terjadi pertikaian. lalu bagaimana dengan lima Tuhan yang entah bagaimana pembagian konsentrasinya? Tidakkah semestinya bumi ini bisa sudah menjadi musnah berabad-abad yang lalu bersama dengan para Dinosaurus?

Dari sini, bisa dilihat, kalau meskipun ada beberapa agama dan aliran yang ada sekarang, tiap-tiap agama itu percaya akan adanya: hanya satu zat yang Esa, orang yang baik akan mendapat imbalan yang baik di kehidupan selanjutnya kelak, entah itu disebut surga, nirwana, dan orang yang berbuat jahat akan mendapat balasan yang buruk dan setimpal di kehidupan selanjutnya. 

Keberadaan Allah itu ada dari persepsi dan rasa percaya kita sendiri. Orang bilang inilah yang disebut Iman, percaya terhadap sesuatu yang belum pernah kita jumpai atau tidak pernah kita lihat, namun benarkah kita belum pernah berjumpa dengan-Nya?

Buat saya, iman kita dalam suatu agama merupakan buah dari perjalanan religi masing-masing individu. Kita percaya pasti karena sudah pernah mengalami hal itu sendiri. Mungkin kita pernah merasa bertemu dengan-Nya maka dari itu kita terus percaya akan Dia. Buat saya, Allah itu ada disini. Di setiap kali saya memejam mata, berdoa, bernafas, berdetak,  dan lain-lain. Allah selalu melindungi di sekeliling

Sedikit renungan..., 

Apakah Tuhan Menciptakan Kejahatan? 

Seorang Profesor dari sebuah universitas terkenal menantang mahasiswa-mahasiswanya dengan pertanyaan ini, "Apakah Tuhan menciptakan segala yang ada?". 

Seorang mahasiswa dengan berani menjawab, "Betul, Dia yang menciptakan semuanya". 
"Tuhan menciptakan semuanya?" Tanya professor sekali lagi. "Ya, Pak, semuanya" kata mahasiswa tersebut.
Profesor itu menjawab, "Jika Tuhan menciptakan segalanya, berarti Tuhan menciptakan Kejahatan. Karena kejahatan itu ada, dan menurut prinsip kita bahwa pekerjaan kita menjelaskan siapa kita, jadi kita bisa berasumsi bahwa Tuhan itu adalah kejahatan.

" Mahasiswa itu terdiam dan tidak bisa menjawab hipotesis professor tersebut. Profesor itu merasa menang dan menyombongkan diri bahwa sekali lagi dia telah membuktikan kalau Agama itu adalah sebuah mitos. 

Mahasiswa lain mengangkat tangan dan berkata, "Profesor, boleh saya bertanya sesuatu?".
"Tentu saja," jawab si Profesor, 
Mahasiswa itu berdiri dan bertanya, "Profesor, apakah dingin itu ada?" 
"Pertanyaan macam apa itu? Tentu saja dingin itu ada. 
Kamu tidak pernah sakit flu?" Tanya si professor diiringi tawa mahasiswa lainnya.
Mahasiswa itu menjawab, "Kenyataannya, Pak, dingin itu tidak ada. 
Menurut hukum fisika, yang kita anggap dingin itu adalah ketiadaan panas. Suhu -460F adalah ketiadaan panas sama sekali. Dan semua partikel menjadi diam dan tidak bisa bereaksi pada suhu tersebut. Kita menciptakan kata dingin untuk mendeskripsikan ketiadaan panas." 

Mahasiswa itu melanjutkan, "Profesor, apakah gelap itu ada?" Profesor itu menjawab, "Tentu saja itu ada." 
Mahasiswa itu menjawab, "Sekali lagi anda salah, Pak. Gelap itu juga tidak ada. Gelap adalah keadaan dimana tidak ada cahaya. Cahaya bisa kita pelajari, gelap tidak. Kita bisa menggunakan prisma Newton untuk memecahkan cahaya menjadi beberapa warna dan mempelajari berbagai panjang gelombang setiap warna. Tapi Anda tidak bisa mengukur gelap. Seberapa gelap suatu ruangan diukur dengan berapa intensitas cahaya di ruangan tersebut. Kata gelap dipakai manusia untuk mendeskripsikan ketiadaan cahaya." 

Akhirnya mahasiswa itu bertanya, "Profesor, apakah kejahatan itu ada?"
Dengan bimbang professor itu menjawab, "Tentu saja, seperti yang telah kukatakan sebelumnya. 
Kita melihat setiap hari di Koran dan TV. Banyak perkara kriminal dan kekerasan di antara manusia. Perkara-perkara tersebut adalah manifestasi dari kejahatan." 

Terhadap pernyataan ini mahasiswa itu menjawab, "Sekali lagi Anda salah, Pak. 
Kejahatan itu tidak ada. Kejahatan adalah ketiadaan Tuhan. Seperti dingin atau gelap, kejahatan adalah kata yang dipakai manusia untuk mendeskripsikan ketiadaan Tuhan. 
Tuhan tidak menciptakan kajahatan. Kejahatan adalah hasil dari tidak adanya Cahaya Tuhan dihati manusia. Seperti dingin yang timbul dari ketiadaan panas dan gelap yang timbul dari ketiadaan cahaya."
Profesor itu terdiam.

Nama mahasiswa itu adalah Albert Einstein.

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lakukan apa yang terbaik dengan apa yang kita percaya, dan berharap semoga Allah selalu memberi kesempatan pada kita untuk memperbaiki diri. Kemana kita akan kembali, agama manakah yang benar, semua itu Allahualam, semua itu rahasia Allah, yang terlihat baik belum tentu memang baik dan yang paling baik adalah menjadi baik di mata-Nya. Pelan asal yakin, sedikit namun berkelanjutan insyAllah nggak akan sia-sia. 


alam tara anna allaaha yuzjii sahaaban tsumma yu-allifu baynahu tsumma yaj'aluhu rukaaman fataraa alwadqa yakhruju min khilaalihi wayunazzilu mina alssamaa-i min jibaalin fiihaa min baradin fayushiibu bihi man yasyaau wayashrifuhu 'an man yasyaau yakaadu sanaabarqihi yadzhabu bial-abshaari 
43. Tidaklah kamu melihat bahwa Allah mengarak awan, kemudian mengumpulkan antara (bagian-bagian)nya, kemudian menjadikannya bertindih-tindih, maka kelihatanlah olehmu hujan keluar dari celah-celahnya dan Allah (juga) menurunkan (butiran-butiran) es dari langit, (yaitu) dari (gumpalan-gumpalan awan seperti) gunung-gunung, maka ditimpakan-Nya (butiran-butiran) es itu kepada siapa yang dikehendaki-Nya dan dipalingkan-Nya dari siapa yang dikehendaki-Nya. Kilauan kilat awan itu hampir-hampir menghilangkan penglihatan. (Q.S:An-Nur 43)

"Look inside yourselves, Such a perfect order, Hiding in yourselves, Running in your veins, What about anger love and pain, And all the things you’re feeling, Can you touch them with your hand? So are they really there? Lets start question in ourselves, Isn’t this proof enough for us? Or are we so blind, To push it all aside..? No.. We just have to,Open our eyes, our hearts, and minds, If we just look bright to see the signs, We can’t keep hiding from the truth, Let it take us by surprise, take us in the best way (Allah..), Guide us every single day..(Allah..) Keep us close to You, Until the end of time.."
- Maher Zain - Open Your Eyes.

Aamiin ya rabbal alamin.

fairy tale does exist

27.11.13


“Di tengah gurun yang tertebak, jadilah salju abadi. Embun pagi tak akan kalahkan dinginmu, angin malam akan menggigil ketika melewatimu, oase akan jengah, dan kaktus terperangah. Semua butir pasir akan tahu jika kau pergi, atau sekadar bergerak dua inci. Dan setiap senti gurun akan terinspirasi karena kau berani beku dalam neraka, kau berani putih meski sendiri, karena kau… berbeda.”

― Dee, Filosofi Kopi: Kumpulan Cerita dan Prosa Satu Dekade

Ngga perlu jadi orang lain untuk seseorang. Be yourself, and find someone who can accept you as who you are and what you will be. Whether you're pretty, ugly, chubby, fat, dark, white, tan, good mood, bad mood, sad, or happy, then they look on you and still think that you are amazing.

24.11.13

#tb

throwing back into these some couple last awesome weeks! And yes, I'm still troubled with..well.. these first year an university student's stuffs. Reports, tasks, evaluations, practices, events, and so so many else. Which is spent much of my times and energies. So.. I planned to share you guys some of my experiences and make an evaluation to my own self through this post, hehehehe

It's been an 11st weeks since my first day on my university, and well I can't believe it..like..I just blink my eyes and now it's already the 11st weeks? :O wow! Been learned some subjects and now it's going into higher and harder level. Counting numbers with an uneasy formulas. Drawing things with some specification. Beside that, I still need to attend some (out of the study stuff) events. And now i feel how important is it to arrange times in life. How to make time's priority, divide which one is the first thing i should done.. what's second, what's next? And also.. what I shouldn't have done..

By the way, sometimes, I also feel bored to do these routine activities, Get up, pray, take a bath, eat, do homework, go to school, back to home, study, pray, sleep, and back to get up again. . . Zzzzz

Well, not gonna take a longer time , here are some things i've done for these last weeks, check it out!

Derai's birthday
celebrating my friend's birthday together with my classmates. Splashing water and being annoying hahahaha although there is no birthday cake and candle above it, or gift inside box, but  for me, what's most important here is.. the togetherness, warmness, and blissful moments that we can share together. And not forget.. also every pray that we silently ask to Allah for others happiness and blessings :)


Before the futsal tournament, MIT CUP.

Next is.. Participating in my department's events! There are "Pendampingan", a program that made by my senior, where every 15 of new students have one guardian (cyeilee) who we could ask for things in school that we haven't known about. DS CUP, a competition that held by Himpunan Mahasiswa (an organization for students) for all people in my department which contains of Futsal, Basket, Volly, and Badminton tournament, plus Accoustic. and MIT CUP, a competition which contains of Futsal, Basket, Volly, and Badminton tournament, plus Stand Up Comedy that held by organizer in my generation for my generation :))


Me and friends while doing our "Pendampingan" tasks. 

I think these events are good because it can make all people in my department know and close to each other. Since, I'm a new person in this environment.. I think it's really needed to have this kind of events. Maybe I haven't really being an active participant in the tournament. . .but i did my best to spend times and keep follow the crowd. . .yeay ! it's a fun time indeed to support our teams and delegations. And such a way out to relieve all stressing stuffs.  


The next one is...

Some pictures while doing practice in road.

Study together! this is what mostly takes time of mine. Since, yeah, I'm coming to school of course to study hehehehe. And I'm so thankful that my education program is not only about sitting in class, opening books, taking notes, but also. .have a practice time in field. .

Welcoming a next technician's life to myself *drums rolls* Dealing with sunlight, hot and baked~~ :p Being darker :)) Kumel. . .but still kece all the way :)) B)

we had some strange moments while doing our practice. Met an abnormal bapak-bapak who always bringing his guitar and do some silat's movements. And he made one of my friend crying. . . Met a 'PMS' satpam who suddenly mad to us. . .wonder why he didn't ask us in good way first. . .

Practice time is a fun yet tiring day to do. By the way my group was contain with the most people! There are nine, five girls and four boys!so if we got tasks like what we've got yesterday, it so..took a long time! Since, we need to measure  points as much as we are. But I'm feeling so grateful to be a part of my group, because it's contain of. . . absurd and jones people :)) So we all have common things to talk about :)) And I'm telling you..that it so fun to spend time with them :)) Wish that we could being more one and finish all the tasks that'd given. Bismillah, Wish Allah will give His blessing to us. . .

we before the practice time


we after have done the tasks, and having meals together




Last...

i found this while i just got home in my room's mirror. my little sister said that it has  been written by my daddy when I was out. Thank you dad! Hope i could soon make you proud of me. May healthy and blessing stays together with you and all of us,aamiin
So.. what myself should do days on:
  1. be wiser on managing times. And really make a time's priority. Not choose to do what I want to do. But do what I must to do.
  2. do evaluation to myself in interacting with people, because from times that I spent with my friends to talk about others. .I know how society is scary. We shouldn't be a selfish person, do well, and respecting each other if we want to be threaten well too.
  3. keep my spirit high, be thankful, and praying  to Allah SWT for everything the best
  4. Should bring myself out of my comfort zone, and try new stuffs, since I'm so easy to feel bored, hehehe
Alhamdulillah, i think that's all! So, how's yours guys? :)

13.11.13

Heyho!


Gonna have a short and quick post! Just gonna tell you guys, that I'm so happy towards anything around me now. I'd so thankful to Allah SWT for everything that Allah has given to me until this second. One thing: Allah will not give you every thing you want but Allah will definitely give you what you need. Because He knows more than what we know. Maybe I can't live my  high school's dream, but I still happy (at least, for this period) for living what now I should face. I'm so thankful to Allah to bring me lot of people that so warm, lovely, respecting, welcome, good, and kind..to me. Place, where i could finally feeling like I was home and safe. Where I don't need too much too pretend, where I could do what I wanna do, talking what I wanna talk, and place where I want to make myself better and better, insya Allah :) Place, where, I could feel like.. every second that I spend with them, I was with my family. 

8.11.13

di balik doa yang tidak terkabul


Ada seseorang yang rajin berdoa, minta sesuatu sama Allah. Orangnya sholeh. Ibadahnya baik. Tapi doa tak kunjung terkabul. Sebulan menunggu masih belum terkabul juga. Tetap dia berdoa. Tiga bulan juga belum. Tetap dia berdoa. Hingga hampir satu tahun doa yang ia panjatkan, belum terkabul juga. Dia melihat teman kantornya. Orangnya biasa saja. Tak istimewa. Sholat masih bolong-bolong.

Kelakuannya juga sering nggak beres, sering tipu-tipu, bohong sana-sini. Tapi anehnya, apa yang dia doain, semuanya dipenuhi. Orang sholeh ini pun heran. Akhirnya, dia pun dateng ke seorang ustadz. Ceritalah dia permasalahan yang sedang dihadapi. Tentang doanya yang sulit terkabul padahal dia taat, sedangkan temannya yang bandel, malah dapat apa yang dia inginkan.

Tersenyumlah ustadz ini. Bertanyalah si ustadz ke orang ini. Kalau Anda lagi duduk di warung, kemudian datang pengamen, tampilannya urakan, maen musiknya gak bener, suaranya fals, bagaimana? Orang sholeh tadi menjawab, segera saya kasih pak ustadz, gak nahan ngeliat dan ndengerin dia lama-lama di situ, sambil nyanyi pula.

Kalau pengamennya yang dateng rapi, main musiknya enak, suaranya empuk, bawain lagu yang kamu suka, bagaimana? Wah, kalo gitu, saya dengerin ustadz. Saya biarin dia nyanyi sampai habis. Lama pun nggak masalah. Kalau perlu saya suruh nyanyi lagi. Nyanyi sampai sealbum pun saya rela. Kalau pengamen tadi saya kasih 500, yang ini 10.000 juga berani, ustadz.

Pak ustadz pun tersenyum. begitulah nak. Allah ketika melihat engkau, yang sholeh, datang menghadap-Nya, Allah betah ndengerin doamu. Melihat kamu. Dan Allah pengen sering ketemu kamu dalam waktu yang lama. Buat Allah, ngasih apa yang kamu mau itu gampang betul. Tapi Dia pengen nahan kamu biar khusyuk, biar deket sama Dia. Coba bayangin, kalo doamu cepet dikabulin, apa kamu bakal sedeket ini? Dan di penghujung nanti, apa yang kamu dapatkan kemungkinan besar jauh lebih besar dari apa yang kamu minta.

Beda sama temenmu itu. Allah gak mau kayaknya, dia deket-deket sama Allah. Udah dibiarin biar bergelimang dosa aja dia ini. Makanya Allah buru-buru kasih aja. Udah. Jatahnya ya segitu doang. Gak nambah lagi.

Dan yakinlah, kata pak ustadz, kalaupun apa yang kamu minta ternyata gak Allah kasih sampai akhir hidupmu, masih ada akhirat, nak. Sebaik-baik pembalasan adalah jatah surga buat kita. Nggak bakal ngerasa kurang kita di situ.

Tersadarlah orang tadi. Ia pun beristighfar, sudah berprasangka buruk kepada Allah. Padahal Allah betul-betul amat menyayanginya. Semoga kisah ini menjadi dapat pelajaran bagi kita semua... Aamiin

courtesy: here

15.10.13

Happy Ied Adha

Whew, can't tell another proper words for times nowadays,

it flew away too fast,

don't ya think so? :/ An hour just passed like a second strikes to a minute. It's like once you blink an eye, many times already wasted. Well, well, it's already 6:24 PM here, which means.. 15hours from now, my short-holiday's gonna end soon, and college's life is back, *sobbing* By the way, Happy Mbek Day for all moslems in this world, especially to all moslems which currently do Haji in Makkah, wish y'all could be the mabrur ones of course, Wish my mom and dad soon can go there, aamiin. So, gonna share you a bit what I did hours ago :D

Last Saturday, my home got a guest :D He's my cousin from Tangerang, his name is Fathan, now he is a first year student like me, at Universitas Brawijaya, same with my older brother. Because the holiday isn't long enough so he spent these holiday came to my house :D

We went to same places at Surabaya, by the way mas Fathan had a big trouble with Javanese, so anytime my family speak in Java we should translate it into Bahasa Indonesia, well not a big job actually so it doesn't  really matter :)) First, he tried Bebek Palupi near my home with my brother, he said that it's been long enough since last time he ate Bebek goreng (wonder what kind of food he usually eats ckckck). Because that day already too late in the night, we all spent at home watching television and went to sleep yeaayy

Day 2, hmm? What did I do ya?*digging for recent old memories*
Ah! That was Sunday, right? I had some relaxing times with my JHS's super friend, Mbik, at Tunjungan Plaza. Been months not going into a mall and stuffs like that so I'm enjoying my times there with her, shared so many stories as always... New friends, college life, funny experiences, her-kind-of-sickness (she so easy to forget lately, and it's a bit serious matter i think), and also...... our love stories puhuhuhu.
Well, having a day with her is a pleasure as always,
looking forward for next meeting ya sissy, Goodluck for our study ya :)



Day 3, went to Suramadu (Surabaya-Madura) bridge and looked around Surabaya with full team + Mas Fathan, Been sooooo loooong not having this kind of times, so my mood that night was so so so happy :D

P.S: the sea breeze was so strong that night

Last day, which means today... hrrrr such a nightmare in one side, since I had lot of tasks that I haven't fully done during to my kebuntuan, :-( You know? I'm so depend with....that.."Power of kepepet", Like I need kind-of-big pressure to make my ideas go out... So here I am..... Troubled with two tasks that I should have done by tomorrow... when i just have done it, perhaps 15% to 100%..... so sad...actually. Times to make friends with coffee, papers, and another sleepless night from now on, by the way still happy fifteenth to you ;-)



Well, let's back to life, guys.