Trying to go the other side from what I know exactly the world is telling me to?
Been missing this space for sure. Honestly, i don't know why it's sooo sooo hard to spare times to blab at here, but hopefully I could finish what I write this time. We all know, 2020 went unpredictable. Start with few nature's disaster followed by the coming of corona pandemic. Well, let's say that the phrase which said "man may make plans, but only God who decides" is not debatable. We all know 2020 supposed to provide many "pretty dates" they say, when people planned for held some special events such as, marriage, engagement, birth, etc. But, who knows? Allah turns it upside down. We are prohibited to do things and stuffs we used to do. from the basic into the most complicated things.
2020 is somehow a special year, for me. It marks my quarter of century living as a human. They say, 25 comes with its quarter life crisis. But, what was it? I thought, every year bring us another problem to conquer, another self identity to discover, another feeling to feel, and another goals to pursue. And among those phase we need to pass, we all may and normally to feel lost and be bitter.
Every year, we are wandering unlocking our hidden destiny while our consciousness still telling us where we want to go, but the reality doesn't always goes the way we want it and that's when the crisis come. That's when we feel lost and upmost from our own gravity. Then, asking about our existence.
By the way, nothing much happened on my 25's birthday. Beside, we were all in self-distancing mode. I didn't even celebrate it with my family. I bought my own birthday cake two weeks after it. I bought a cheesecake as a self-appreciation. I didn't even light my candle because I couldn't find the lighter at my own home- haha. By the way, my family has been moving to Malang since the beginning of Corona started. So, my home at Surabaya temporarily empty. I rarely go there and mostly stay at Gresik due to the regulation.
Well, that's all I can tell about the birthday.
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"Do not chase people. Be you and do your own thing and work hard. The right people who belong in your life will come to you, and stay."
This is a story of how I start my healthier life, to keep my body balance, between eating, working, and living my routines. I used to do cycling as my weekly workout, but then I start to live away from home, at Kudus for about 1,5 years. So I never did any workout since that, beside walking to my office, walking around project, etc.
Now, it's been almost 6 months I stay at the head-office, alhamdulillah :') My life was revolve around waking up, working, eating, and going back to sleep. until one day, my pants started to feel strait at my belly and my body feel so heavy for me than before. Ew. That day, I realize, I have been eating too much and have an irregular sleeping hour (I got an insomnia).
Then, I started to feel curious when my desk-mate, mba Uswah, talking about her gymnastic schedule. Long story short, I joined the gymnastic with mba Uswah and that was the first time I felt so happy because I was sweating A LOT, after all this time, I never do any EXERCISE at all. I felt my body was at ease. No tired at all. just sweat.
It has been more than a month, I have a regular schedule for working out, at Tuesday night and Saturday morning. Now, I know, why people who's trying to have a healthy life, they become addicted to it, either running, gym, yoga, cycling, and so on. Because, it gives you a total-satisfaction. Believe me, you have to throw away that laziness and start to do any exercise for your body..
Here are some tips from me:
1. Find a mate to do the exercise
2. Do any exercise that you feel happy to do it, any simplest exercise will do. as long as, it will make your body works!
3. Set your schedule, so it becomes your routine. Because, if you do it when you have a free time, you will keep procrastinating, and never do any exercise at all.
4. Set any motivation, either to keep your body healthy, or to gain any body goals.
Hey blog, it's raining at my home and i'm feeling tired after taking care of some matters with my friend. So here I end up - again! hekekekek. I really catch you very soon, aye? :P
I think I wanna share my experience in making cupcakes times ago! because i scare i might forget how to make it (because i still have no time to make it again), so i'll blog it here!
Things you need to prepare:
Flour, i buy one that already mixed one pack with the addition ingredients (such as vanilli, etc), it will make your works 100x times easier hehehe!
2 eggs
oil
chocolate
powdered sugar
cupcakes mold
oven
colorful candy/any cake garnish
Ways to make it:
1. Prepare the flour at a bowl/the mixer bowl, add 2 eggs into it, then also pour the oil (it's about 10-15 tablespoon). Mix them! Until the color turns into slightly light yellow. You just need to turn the mixer power into the maximum, and hold it for 5-7 minutes. And tadaaa your needed mixture is there! 2. Prepare the cupcakes mold, the aluminum ones and the paper ones. Place the paper cupcakes mold inside the aluminium ones, and place it into a bigger-rectangular-aluminium-mold, so it will be way simpler to place inside the oven.
3. Pour the cupcakes mixture into the mold, adjust the amount with your oven heat, if it burned the cake swiftly, just add into 7/8 part, if it burned normally just add the mixture fully. :)
4. To not make my cupcakes taste plain, I usually add cheese/caramel/chocolate in the middle of it. So I pour the mixture into 1/2 part, and add the filling (grated cheese/caramel/etc) into it, then continue adding the mixture into the 7/8 or fully part. After it's ready, place it inside the oven! And wait until 15-20 minutes, depends on the type of your oven.
waiting it to be fully baked yayy yayy
5. While waiting your cupcakes to be done, let's prepare for the decorating part! I usually make it from chocolate or you can make it from icing! I will describe you both..
6. To make the garnish from melting chocolate, I usually buy the white-chocolate ones, so I can make some color- not only white or chocolate, hehey. Melt the chocolate above the hot water, when it's melt enough, take it and placed it above the cupcakes. So easy, right? 7. If you want to garnish it with icing/cream, you need to prepare butter, powdered sugar, vanilla, and milk! Just mix them for some minutes until it tastes and looks like a cream, then just add it into a triangle plastic, cut the tip, and BHEW! Make your own icing above your cupcakes!
my first attempt in making cupcakes
8. Have a happy tummy with cupcakes! ;)
I can't provide many images/videos huhu, sorry! I was so busy making it last time that I didn't take many pictures! I only can hold my phone when I already washed my hands.. teheee! I'll show you better next time when I make it, insyaAllah. By the way.. i really miss cooking something (mostly for someone :P) huhu!
Lagi random bgt deh.. gabisa tidur.. dan akhirnya ngeliatin rak buku.. iseng-iseng buka novel-novel yang uda lama ga tersentuh, dan waktu aku bukain satu-satu, weh! pada berjamur bercak-bercak gitu! apalagi ini!
oiya, kalo orang tanya/minta rekomendasi novel ke aku
pasti aku bakal bilang "Apa ya? aku sih sukanya Perahu Kertas"
Gatau aku suka aja sama ceritanya. Ngena aja gitu. Ceritanya ngalir dan realistis. Aku suka ceritanya Kugy sama Keenaan, yang ngejar mimpi, yang diem-diem ternyata punya perasaan yang kuat gitu, bukan karena kisah cinta yang unyu-unyu dan romantis, tapi emang karena ada sesuatu dr mereka berdua yang "klik", yang bisa mendukung satu sama lain.. mengisi satu sama lain.. menginspirasi satu sama lain.. dan terbiasa dengan itu semua.
Dan menurut aku... that's how love simply works, in reality.
"Saya belajar dari kisah hidup seseorang. Hati tidak pernah memilih. Hati dipilih, jadi kalau Keenan bilang, Keenan telah memilih saya, selamanya Keenan tidak akan pernah tulus mencintai saya. Karena hati tidak perlu memilih. Ia selalu tahu kemana harus berlabuh."
beautiful scenery at Paralayang and Pantai Gua Cina
Hey blog..
finally i got a free time for awhile, at least it's still 4 hours until i need to do something again. so, I want to fulfill my promise to someone that asked me at ask.fm hehe..
yes, I've been being so busy lately.. my academic and non academic's activities, both kept me running, mostly at this November. I even never spent my weekend at home! So these are what I did last month.. (especially at the weekend)
1) Done one of training's following event at my campus.
2) Done one of my task, went out with friends, slept over at her house, then the next day I went to Car free day, and played basketball.
3) Went to support my major KJI team at Malang
4) Had RAKER and watched Maliq.
and at the weekdays, I had a super tiring school's days because I got such a much tasks, a heavy series of practices, lot of evaluations, and another activities.
It can be a super long story if I should write every detail that happened to me, so I will just tell you the highlight part of it ;-) okey?
So, the training's following event that I've done was called TD Pusaka. I was being an OC in there. Like usual, I need to prepare things that needed, wake up earlier, etc. But the good news is I did it with my other 50+25 friends :) So, the tiredness were paid back by having a good time with them! :) Btw, from that activity, me and my friends have new toy to play, it's called "Break claps". It's a series of clapping hand with different patterns from 1 to 7, and it's challenging because it has a nice and engrossed sounds. Beside that, me and Vio was taught (not-so) privately by someone that I can't tell the name. :p
The next weekend, I had an even crazier days! It happened when my friends, Vio and Bibib asked to finish our Mektek Task together. actually, we supposed to do it at KFC Kertajaya with Hisyam, but suddenly these two girls popped front of my house, and all the plans were changed. At the end, we've done it at my house while eating an ice cream that we bought earlier :) But not so long after we started to do our homework.. we got bored.. and had an idea to go to Sutos instead hahaha! So.. yeah there we go.. SUTOS at 10 P.M!
Guess what we did in there? Yes, after goofing around for couple times, enter the stationery's store, watching people eating, then we end up by entering the cinema, buying the popcorn. And... only...watching.. trailer of films! :p
our sleepy faces
at 12 PM we went back, I had a sleepover at Vio's. It was raining on that day.. and suddenly omik answered my message, so we were chatting for awhile, but he's on busy mode that early morning so I decided joining Vio to sleep hihi. The next morning, Bibib picked me and Vio up! We went to help Icak vend at Car Free Day Darmo. Me and Vio bought socks in there! It was only 5000 and we got two pairs of it! :D So cheap huh, after tired walking around in there, finally we found Icak. Then we bought many foods, yeah! I ate up 1 portion of fried rice and 2 portions of grilled meatballs. Hweheheheehhhhh, so full! :)
After had my stomach full, we went to Basketball court at ITS Sukolilo. yeah, I played for some minutes in there :)) only randomly running with my shoes off.. and it felt hot! I also played free throw ball with Bibib and Vio. So, we had terms that before we throw the ball we should shout the name of someone that disturbing our mind hahahaha. So.. when I got my 3rd turned, I shout Tommy's name. "Ini buaaaaaaat omiiiiik" then I throw the ball, and dang! it was goal! :p But when I told him this story, he said that it was dramatic --" *sobs* yeah.. that's how I ended my crazy 2nd weekend! Woho!
Well..now we got on the 3rd weekend part. It will take too much words to describe the happiness of my 3rd weekend's journey. Maybe, these videos and pictures below would tell you better :)
failed video =))
better one =))
our happy faces! finally, beach!
This journey was especially dedicated for our friend Tiara who needs a refreshment because of something :) I hope you won't ever be sad again! After supporting our major's team at KJI and KBGI events, we made our own holiday! Yes, we spent 3 days and 2 nights at Batu-Malang. I was so happy that days, I met some of my high school's friends too in there, they were Hendro, Devy, and Nanda. It was good to feel the nice and cold weather of Batu-Malang (again).. having jokes with friends.. spent the night together.. at Alun-alun, at the car along the journey, etc. Being with the ones you loved and love you, always good, right? :)
Thanks for the great holiday! As always.. Looking forward for the next! yeyy yeyy
Finally.... I reach the last part! It's my 4th weekend!
So, I have a new activity, I got accepted for being a staff at BEM FTSP, I'm at Communication and Information Department. I dont know how.. but I really liked my job.. It's like I'm not doing anything, because everything that I gotta do.. were my hobbies! Writing.. capturing moments.. editing photos. :) I know, Allah always knows the best. right? alhamdulillah. What's more exciting about it? I met many new friends in there. Hopefully I can get along well with them.. do every of my tasks in here well too.. and be consistent aamiin!
last day activity.. after sitting for hours in 3 days! hoaam
after finished the raker sessions. Bibib and Vio (again) picked me up! Because we need to catch our interview test at chemical engineering building. Hehe, it was my first time went there, seriously guys after a year! ckckckck. Well.. if you 're going to ask me how was the test going?.. you better not :-) Maybe vio and bibib would answer it better (because they found something interesting in there..hahahaa).
at east coast
After we've done the interview sessions, we went to mosque and had a long chat in there. and at 8PM we went eating at East Coast, and as the closing part of this year's November! We watched Maliq D' Essentials! Woo! I thought, it was a great performance by them, because it has been awhile since the last time I watched a music concert..hehe.. by the way.. have i tell you that Bibib had her birthday on that 30th November? kindly shout "Happy birthday Bibib" yaa! And also don't forget to wish her the best wishes :)
So..that's how my November went.. see you folks! tasks are already waiting for me! bye
"....... 'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired I'm missing You again oh no Once again ......"
hmm, have you ever felt like...somehow - you're far from Allah? Iyaa, Allah itu emang selalu ada dan memantau kita dari Arsy-Nya. Tapi, kitanya gitu yang lagi ngejauh dari-Nya. I've felt it, many times. Dan ketika kondisi seperti itu datang, rasanya seperti ada bagian dari dalam diri saya yang kurang. Seperti apa yang sedang sayajalanin itu kurang bermakna, kurang berbobot, kurang berlandasan, dan sama sekali tidak bertujuan. And it doesn't feel good at all..
Saya juga gaktau kenapa this kind of situation masih bisa datang, padahal saya tau sendiri kalo saya sedang berada pada situasi seperti ini, itu akan membuat saya merasa gak benar, sedih, dan paint a deeply hole dalam hati saya. It impacts me a lot, sort of:
ibadah saya kurang berkualitas. Sudah sholat, doa, mengaji, dan setelahnya, yaudah bless... balik lagi ngerasa, awang-awang
apa yang saya kerjain itu, gatau mau diarahkan kemana. Seperti, iya saya tau, saya habis ini harus ngerjakan tugas, makan, tidur, pergi, dan lain-lain. Tetapi dalam benak saya, saya bertanya-tanya, "ini buat apa sih sebenernya?"
saya merasa menjadi manusia paling berdosa,tapi saya gak mau melakukan perbaikan untuk hal itu. Tetep aja, ibadah saya jalanin sekedar sarana untuk nggugurin kewajiban.
dan masih banyak hal mengganjal lain yang bikin saya trapped dalam keadaan emosional yang kurang baik. Uring-uringan, diem, atau melongo aja. padahal sebenernya saya cuman lagi ngerasain lelah sama ramainya dunia.
Dan sadly, setiap bulan saya harus mengalami fase ini. Since, I'm already baligh. I should through a period when i can't connect with Allah intensely. Ibadahku menjadi terbatas. Dan akhirnya, poin pertama yang aku ceritakan terjadi dan terulang kembali dalam diri saya :-(
Ya saya sendiri sangat menyadari kalo saya ini masih jauh dari kata baik dan sempurna. karena, memang kan kesempurnaan hanya milik Allah SWT seorang. Dan ya seperti ini lah.. saya juga bisa tergoda dengan buaian dan keindahan dunia yang padahal sifatnya hanyalah ilusi dan sementara. Menomor sekiankan kepentingan agama dibawah kepentingan lain.
Menurut saya, memang kesadaran akan pentingnya untuk "berkoneksi" dengan Sang Pencipta itu timbul dari dorongan naluri dalam diri kita sendiri, kalau ya memang kita butuh Dia untuk menunjukkan mana yang benar dan mana yang salah. kalau ya memang kita butuh uluran tangan-Nya untuk dapat menjalani hidup kita dengan baik. Dan membangun koneksi itu kadang bukanlah hal yang mudah ketika kita sudah terpaut dengan jarak. dianalogikan sebuah koneksi (sinyal) hape, ketika kita sedang berada jauh dari pancaran sinyal tentu sinyal kita akan menjadi lemah, buruk, atau malah tiada kan? namun berbeda lagi apabila kita berada didekat kawasan pancaran sumber sinyalnya, tentu status sinyal di hape kita akan menjadi bagus dan kecepatan koneksinya menjadi cepat. Dan menurut saya seperti itu juga sistim kerja koneksi kita dengan Tuhan kita.
Bila kita sudah berada dekat dengan Sumber kita, tentu kita akan merasakan betapa cepat sinyalnya dapat dimanfaatkan. Ketenangan, kualitas ibadah dan lain-lain. Oleh karena itulah, kita harus memaintain koneksi itu agar selalu baik.. dengan tidak meninggalkan ibadah yang Allah perintahkan kepada kita.
Dari sebuah tulisan yang pernah saya baca. "Ketika kita berjalan untuk mendekatkan diri kepada Allah, maka Allah akan berlari untuk mendekati kita" Subhanallah, in shaa Allah, aamiin
