26.7.14

The Air of Freedom


Menurutku, menulis itu adalah udara bebas. Sebuah sarana mengekspresikan apa yang ada di diri kita. cerita masa lalu, angan-angan, isi hati, pengalaman, pemikiran, pendapat, hal yang menyenangkan, hal menyedihkan, apapun, apapun, kamu bisa menulisnya. 

Mengapa aku mengatakan begitu? Bagaimana dengan apabila kita menulis dengan kata-kata buruk, atau yang bisa menyakitkan orang lain, ato mungkin melanggar peraturan? Kembali lagi, itu sih terserah kepada si penulis kan. Kalo memang dia ingin menulis sesuatu yang blak-blak an, no sensor, dengan kata-kata kasar, ya nanti sang penulis lah yang akan menanggung akibat dari pilihannya itu kan.

Apapun yang hendak kita tulis, itu adalah kebebasan kita. Kita sebagai penulis. Dan menurutku itulah keasyikan dari menulis, you don't need anyone's approval, you just write what you want to write, you just write what you want to relieve, you just write what your heart's says. :)

Literally, ada satu hal lagi yang gak bisa dipisahkan dari menulis, ini juga merupakan salah satu kegiatan favoritku. Tahu kan apa? Yep, benar sekali- membaca. Secara nggak sadar, sehari-hari aku tidak pernah terlepas dari kegiatan ini. Dan aku yakin, kalian yang kehidupannya sudah berada di garis kelayakan, pasti juga mengalami hal yang sama denganku. Setiap hari, kalian pasti akan membaca sesuatu, misalnya, ketika kalian membuka akun sosial kalian, banyak hal yang sudah kita baca, mungkin ungkapan hati akun yang kita ikuti, mungkin fakta-fakta, mungkin update'an berita, ya kan? :) Akupun sama.

Sama seperti menulis, membaca juga merupakan sebuah udara kebebasan. Sebagai pembaca, kita bisa bebas memilih apa yang ingin kita baca. Kita males baca ini, sukanya baca topik yang itu. Kita gak suka tulisannya orang A, tapi ngefans berat sama tulisannya orang B. Kita nggak bisa baca tulisan yang pake bahasa ini, kita bisanya bahasa itu. As a reader, you hold your own choice for what you want to read. :)

Kadang sebagai pelajar, kita terlalu muluk berbicara tentang kebebasan. Kita mudah benci dengan peraturan lembaga tempat kita menempa ilmu, yang terlalu mengekang, terlalu memberatkan, terlalu akademis, terlalu padat jadwal, dan lain-lain. Akupun tidak menyalahkan pandangan itu, karena stigmaku pada sistem pendidikan yang sekarang pun juga tak jauh dari itu.

Tetapi, kapan hari, aku membuka sebuah link, yang berisi tentang lukisan yang diinterpretasikan oleh seorang pengamat lukisan. Akupun cukup takjub ketika membacanya. Mungkin, kalau misal aku melihat gambar-gambar itu tanpa adanya tulisan-tulisan tersebut, aku sangat yakin, pemikiranku tidak akan sampai kesitu. 
Dari gambar itu, timbul pertanyaan dari dalam diri.

Pendidikan. Harusnya mampu mencerdaskan peserta didiknya, memberi ladang kebebasan untuk mengekspresikan pemikiran, menguji kompetensi. Mampu berdiri diatas kakinya sendiri, sebagai individu, mengapa? Karena kita sudah berpendidikan, beredukasi.

Tetapi bagaimana fakta yang ada sekarang?

Konon, siswa ataupun mahasiswa sekarang, khususnya Indonesia, bukannya menjadi sosok yang independen, justru malah dicemari menjadi generasi yang suka mencontek, suka plagiat, suka bolos, suka membelot, bangga menjadi pelanggar, dan lain-lain. Menurutku, pendidikan kini- justru menjadi subjek yang membodohi objeknya. Sistem pendidikan kini lah yang mendorong objeknya menjadi memiliki mental-mental seperti itu. Karena, sistem yang ada sekarang, menanamkan, nilai lebih penting daripada pemahaman. Kejujuran tidak dihargai. Yang memiliki nilai, tanpa memedulikan bagaimana cara mendapatkannya, yang akan menang, daripada mereka yang memahami. Sungguh sangat disayangkan.

Apa sih yang aku ingin bilang disini?

Hmm lebih tepatnya, aku sekarang sedang mengajak kita semua, untuk bertanya, terlebih kedalam diri kita masing-masing. Harusnya pendidikan adalah yang membuat orang mampu berdiri diatas kakinya sendiri, lalu bebas, ingin melangkahkannya kemana. Bukan malah menjadi penekan kebebasan seseorang. Membatasi ruang fikir kita hanya pada sebatas ukuran nilai dan kertas-kertas ujian, tugas, laporan nilai, peraturan. Dan berujung, kita melakukan itu semua, karena keterpaksaan. Bukan kebutuhan.

Masih terpatri dibenakku ketika aku masih duduk di bangku Sekolah Dasar. Orang tua, bapak, dan ibu guruku kala itu sering mengingatkan kami bahwa sebagai siswa, tugas utama kami adalah belajar. Dan kegiatan belajar ku dulu hanya dapat dipenuhi dengan kegiatan membaca ataupun menulis, karena Teknologi belum secanggih sekarang. Tapi, justru di waktu dulu lah aku menemukan nikmat menjadi pelajar. Ketika rasa ingin tahu, mencambuk sebagai rangsangan ingin menjadi seseorang yang rajin dan pandai. Aku belajar karena aku merasa butuh, aku ingin bisa membaca lebih, dan aku juga ingin menulis banyak hal darinya. Seperti itu.

Aku rasa, budaya itulah, yang kini sudah runtuh. Kita menyepelekan membaca dan menulis, kita sering melakukannya tanpa menghayati sisi utamanya. Aku punya contoh nyata, yang sering aku sebagai individu alamin,

"Kamu ga nyatet?"
"Enggak udah aku foto kok."
"Yaudah aku nanti nyalin ya."

"Kamu ga ndengerin?"
"Nggak, nanti aku baca di rumah aja"

Dan akhirnya jam pembelajaran pun menjadi tidak efektif. Dan yang ada, justru hanyalah rasa malas yang kian menumpuk.

Sekarang aku baru sadar, ketika aku merasa kebebasanku banyak terenggut dari pendidikan yang aku jalani, mungkin aku sendiri yang perlu melakukan instropeksi, karena sepertinya akulah yang sudah melalaikan beberapa hal.

Tenyata, selama ini aku sedang lupa, kalau aku sudah diberi kebebasan. 
Ya, kebebasan untuk membaca dan menulis.

Hal dasar selamanya akan selalu dipakai, berhubungan, dan seterusnya berguna. Sama seperti, penambahan, pengurangan, pembagian, perkalian dalam Matematika yang seterusnya akan terpakai ketika kita belajar Matematika. Sama seperti, a i u e o ba bi bu be bo dalam Bahasa Indonesia, yang seterusnya akan terpakai ketika kini pun kita berbicara ataupun membaca. Membaca dan menulis adalah hal dasar yang seterusnya harus kita pakai, kita hubungkan, dan kita gunakan dalam belajar, menempuh pendidikan, ataupun hidup kita seterusnya. Karena, hidup adalah sebuah pembelajaran, karena hidup adalah sebuah cerita yang kita tulis, lalu kita baca esoknya, supaya kita belajar menjadi lebih baik, terus dan terus seperti itu. Dari menulis, kita membagi 1001 hidup, dan dari membaca kita menghidupi 1001 kehidupan. Sungguh, hal yang sangat kaya, bukan?

Jadi, kalo kamu juga pernah lupa, semoga ini  mampu mengingatkanmu. :)

P.S: i found a very good article just couple weeks after i wrote this post. You must also read it peers. click here! :)

23.7.14

When you believe

This week's journey yey

It's 2.18 A.M in the morning, but as I'm still here, you know, I can't sleep..
Well, maybe I should killing my time here.. I've turned on my room's cooler, listening to music, and things similar to that.. Yep, being in cycle is really a bad thing in Ramadhan's month.. huf..

Hey..
Time is really one kind of a magic, I guess. You know what, It's been a month since my first day of holiday. And 23rd day of fasting! I know, days must have been passed really good until i didn't realize it at all :) 

I really thankful to You, Allah. 

These days, I have those people who always there taking care of me, company me, day to night, day to afternoon, night to morning, lucky enough right? :) Plus, in this holiday I have sort of things to do at morning to afternoon. Sometimes, I company my aunty in running her bakery business.. I'm not doing anything big, sometimes I just packed the cookies, hmm or had mixing some ingredients, also picking it to some places with my aunty. Though, sometimes I felt tired in the night, I never regret myself, because I'm feeling happy while doing it.. Except for the cats's disturbance in my aunty's house. There are 7cats in there.. Can you imagine how's my feeling? Even, there's one that ever disturbing while I'm praying.. You guys must know just how much I was frightened and holding so much of my fear.. ckckck --

Hmm, tonight.. I want to share something too
So, yesterday, I had a sudden little bit cheesy conversation with my mother. And what I wanna share with you is what's it about. I don't know what made my mom asked this to me, but suddenly,
"Kak, why do you have no boyfriend, until now?"
I'm not really took it serious, cause my mom ever asked me the same question couple time before.. But then, my mom continued her words.

 "..because, when you already in job's places, it will be kinda hard to look for it. You'll only have a small circle to communicate it. More over, if you already feel so much comfortable with your job. You'll start to think, that you're really a total independent woman, who doesn't need anyone to share your life with.. Many women have experienced that way.. You know that, right?"

I took a moment to consider what suitable answer for my mom. I told her that I had that kind of scary of being attached with someone. I don't like to trust anyone and being depend on them. I feel it's enough for me for just being an independent one for myself. Then, my mom continued her words.. "You don't need to be in relationship, being just two only with your boyfriend, mom also not really like that, but mom only want you to try knowing someone. try to know how's their personality. try to know how to trust person. try to maintenance things with someone. one day, you'll meet the best person to suit in your life. but one day too, you'll also meet that bad people, who will push you to your patience's limits, who'll scratch your heart with hurt, and leave you for some lessons in the future."

I know, 19 is still an early age for those stuffs. I should take my education at my first option. But, I know what my mother means. Later, I'm not only facing life through books, paper, or presentation. You know, world is wicker out there.. People with two faces are everywhere. And only some who show you their true color in your life... :)

I used to keep pushing away someone that I think I won't to stay with from the start. I used to let things be broken when it already took me down, I will just leave it without trying to fix them first. But, lately, I learn not to. Someone told me that I should try trusting people. Not being too arrogant, and looks strong outside. Try to say what I really feel. Yea, I want to fight for something which I know it will worth fighting for.. 

I remembered with what Ted from HIMYM says,
"When you believe in people, people come through."
And, I'm just still looking for the really right one :)

12.7.14

Ramadhan Kareem 1435


my life this week in a frame

WHOAAA I must have been abandon my Pile of Dust, right? hmmm, since I've done doing my chores's list, I think i can spend a little time here :)

So what has been happening these past days?
Actually, I had lotta things happened, but much of it, are about went to somewhere either with my family or my friends. It's holiday, so i think, i deserve enough to have it, even- I may deserve more! Hahaha, but however, alhamdulillah, thank you, Allah :)

It almost reach the 2nd week of Ramadhan's month. Times walk way too fast, don't you think huh? But it kinda gloomy at my home, since my brother can't joining this Ramadhan at home, since he has to follow his academic's regulation at Kediri. Also, most times, my daddy is going out from the city to have done his work. And my mommy and sister busy take care of the school's entrance. Pssst i tell you, my sister made a big success, alhamdulillah, she got accepted at 1 JHS (just like me), I'm really a proud sister ever. ;) And that's why,  i feel kinda lonesome most time. And, it's kinda hard for me to go outside, since there's no vehicle left when everyone goes out.

Hmmm, first week of Ramadhan i mostly spend at home, chatting, watching Running Man, watching World Cup at the night, Sahur, reading Quran with my sister, helping mum prepare the meals, cleaning the house, eating, sleeping, praying, picking up my grammy to check up --" Until, at Saturday I went out with Aho and Dinar, yehaa finally we met up after a year, dinar said, it's been soooo long rite? <3

Actually, we wanted to ride on Surabaya Heritage (a famous bus that will take you to some tourist's destination places in Surabaya) from House of Sampoerna. But unfortunately we didn't make it, because we ran out of the places :< So then, we just walked around and take some selfie with Aho's tongsis (nak gahoelz bet dah) After felt content of roaming around in there, we decided to go to Tunjungan Plaza, because Aho wanted to look on some shoes in there. And we spent the whole times there until breakfasting. Psst i didn't recommend you to do this, because it consumed much energies of your Sahur meals, you couldn't find any seats to relieve your legs even for a minute.. haaa :p

The next days, hmm, went quite bit absurd.. I just picked up my mommy to mall. My daddy to airport, with my brother, since my daddy took the morning flight, me and my brother watched the World Cup at car hahaha. And then, there was also The Election day, at 9th July, really curious (as always) about the result. I hope, whatever the result that come out, they will become the responsible President who will listen and care to their citizens.

yes, Fingers crossed.

26.6.14

Blessed sister ever!


It's like thousand times (aha, I know I'm too much in saying words), but Allah, it's true.. I'm just feeling so blessed of You for sending me four kind and inspiring brothers like them. Yeah, literally i only have one brother. The other three are sons of my uncle, but since we're growing up together, though we ever separated for some years because they lived abroad, we're close enough as siblings :)

So, there are two of my brother who currently living outside Surabaya. They are at Malang and Bandung. But there are still two who live at Surabaya. Like, I've been give them a hurry-curry condition, again and again, but they're always there helping me.

Sometimes, I asked about my subject to the youngest one. But most time, I ask for advice to the older one. Tehee, and I'm more closer to the older one. Yea, He's more friendly, he always picks me up, when I have event at ITS Pusat, he always picks me up, whenever I'm sick. He always invites to watch movie, though sometimes because he doesn't have a companion, and I never make any of my $$$ out :p I always can ask him many goooooood movies, or Korean variety shows, mostly is Running Man.

My this older brother is also so so sweet. Whenever he picks me in crowded place, he always waves his hands from distances, though I had see him coming! He said that "Yo takute kamu ga kelihatan Ka." and he never make me wait for more than 5minutes. And always waiting so patiently. (so different from the other three)

Different brother, different typical.
Now, it's my 3rd brother! He's kinda moody, sometimes he's so kiiiiiiiiind, sometimes then he's so evil. Sometimes he's so childish, sometimes then he's so father-soon-to-be. He likes treat me foods, but then calling me "Ndut", "Yek perutmu lho hahahaha." He always asks me to ask mom for sending him money! Geez. And he really can't wait something for a moment, i mean he's really really tidak sabaran. I often being left by him when he already promised to pick me up.
Hmmm, But recently, since he has new girlfriend, he becomes so..kind yet scary too =))  
Because, lately he always calls me "Ya, ada apa cantik?" "Suda di ruma cantik?" whenever I chat him. Grr

And the last one! It's the oldest one. And right now, he's currently living at Bandung for his study. He's the most friendly, smartest, and.. what to say? Up to date one. He has a really high pride and self confidence. But everytime he's at Surabaya, he's more likely his twin. He ever pick me up to hospital too when I'm sick. Yea, I could ask him about anything. He's the one who taught me to solve rubic without memorize the formulas. But It didn't work...krik haha.

Yea, that's all a glimpse about my brothers! And, btw, right now, they're already in the end of their college's life. Two are busy with their final project and two others are busy with their practical work.

There's nothing else but the best wishes, that I can give to you bro.
Lastly, Merci, brothers for always save my life! c:

21.6.14

First Outing Experience!


Hey peeps! ;)
This, time i'm going to share you about my quite-much-interesting experience! Which I just have done two days ago :) So I just followed an outing activity that held by my campus for an open recruitment to be their volunteer. And I must say... it was a nice first experience. Yeah, like, i really meet a new thing to try! Meet a total new environment, meet new friends, and heuh (finally) I'm out from my comfort zone.

This outing was held for three days. And it didn't take a long time (only about two hours/day) but in that such short time, i feel like, i got many things to learn. New spirit, new perspective, new friends, new togetherness, new feeling of having responsibility, and new feeling for caring. Mostly about, internationalization.

The first day, all the participants of outing got a great speech from Ms. Maria about the fact that our beloved country, Indonesia, have. She could hypnotized me enough to open my mind wider about internationalization, about facing the upcoming AEC in 2015, about my motivation for following this oprec. 

"you think your country has too many problems, but actually it's much muuch moree than THAT we already knew out there. They think the upcoming AEC is not a big problem, but actually yes IT IS. So, let's start asking from yourself first, have you ready enough to face it? It still few people who cares about this. There's only 98 out of 12.000 who think about this big matter. It's only 98 person out of 5% from 250k Indonesia's citizens who cares about this big matter. So if you say that you really love this country, this is your big job! At least to make your 11.902 other friends realize first! You're success in Internationalization if you already feel that you're in the same level with other people from another country. Students have a big role in this internationalization. Because, you're the lucky ones who can study in university. The future of your country is in your hands. So if your motivation are only to get SKEM, or to enhance your English skill, be wiser! You can take role more than that. And however, want or won't, this's the condition that you will face soon as the challenge of time. That's!"
That's only partly of what Ms. Maria said at the opening session on the 1st day, that's what I catch, mark, and remember. I must missed something there, but yeah, that's really a cool speech.
After got speech, the next agenda was, a presentation from a former in there, he told us about one of big event in there. After that we were divided into groups which one group consist of three people. fortunately I got group with one of my GERIGI's friend, Tommy from Ocean Engineering and also with a senior from Industrial Engineering, named mba Nola. We got the 4th Topic, so we need to plan one of the sub event. And presented it on the last day. And that's how, the activities on that day was ended. 

On the second day of Outing, Me, mba nola, and tommy made a deal to work our tasks in ITS's Library at 2P.M. In there, i also met others group. We brained storming our ideas and blend it into a final plan in there. Mba Nola was previously experienced in this field, since She was one year early in ITS, and she also know much about SME. And Tommy was a diligent boy one, he already made a blurry plan about it, so we could done it smoothly. Just need a final finishing about the presentation. Yay!

Because, that was still 4PM when I already done, and the 2nd Outing was held at 6.30 PM. I decided to wait at my big Uncle's home. I spend good time with my big aunty and older cousin, I cooked, chatted, ate, and watched film in there, wuhuuw. My brother told me some stories in there =)) (emhh, actually we were gossipping) hahaha. Time walks so fast in there and i still need to come for Outing, So i permitted to leave.

2nd day of Outing was fun! All time were spend for playing games! It method to know how's someone when they need to work on group. So, it more emphasized in how the team-work is in solving problems that given. The 1st was we got an issue and we're asked about the solution, etc. And then, we're given p**** and s****, yea it's more how we should be creative, unified, and have job desc for each of us :)

Last but not least.
It was the last day of outing. Quite unique experience for me, because this was my first time directly interacted with foreign students. Yea, I mean, I never really done this before. Have a group discussion with foreigner, and they were from Thailand!!! Ketjeh kan? You know right, just how hard is it to understand their speak? to understand their writing? But it wasn't. We could comfortably and smoothly speak with them, share with them, and they were really nice :) Also, sssst I got a group discussion with the beautiful ones! I mean, she's really beautiful! And they both are from Civil engineering. It's the same department with me!

courtesy: from twitter


After had session with ASEAN Camp's students, the Outing event was continued, it was time for presentation. I got so nervous, because i need to talk front of people, especially in English. Hrrrr, you must know how my hands and voice were being shaky.. =( I know i was really cupu!
Okayyyyy the rest stories were not really a highlight. I just made fun with people who sit nearest to me (don't ask who and what we were doing, haha) and guyss, that daay, the room was really extremely COLD! brr><

ok, bye

13.6.14

19th

Huy everyone!
Gonna share a quick and short post with you!
Sooo, I'm officially 19th years old noow!!! what a sad fact that my times in this world are getting shorter :-( After all, it was another blissful moments to cherish :D though, somehow i feel sad too bcoz some people forget about my birthday, but IT'S ZUPPA OKEEYYY, bcoz i still have some other, thinkiyuu all for the congratulations, wishes, surprises, and gifts. Wish i could be a better person ahead, aamiin ya rabbal alamin

The birthday cake with the BIG NOSE! :)

I got a cutie gift too! :)

8.6.14

They don't have to always understand

You know, latest week of college's life will always be the most hectic, sensitive, and tiring days to through :') People get mad easily. including me. Then they burst their anger to others, shouting to each other, or even turns into fight and traps in silent mode. No talks. No smile. No chatter and laughter. 

I don't know why do we do so? is it relieve all the hardship that we should get done? I don't even think so, in fact, it will take us into another level of stress.


I know, we get tired. We feel upset because things aren't as smooth as we've expected. But, that does not give us the right to treat other people bad, doesn't it? Our problem is our own. And other people do not always have to understand.

Because, everybody has their own problem to solve. When we think, they won't understand our condition enough, think back again, have you understand theirs completely? Not, right? We all never know what sorrow that others have inside their mind. Maybe, they're currently feeling hurt, lonely, rejected, failed, stressed, and many other emotions.

So, Here i give you an advice :) Firstly let's learn ourselves to be responsible for our own problems. Then, help the others when we still have ability. Simple, right? :)

26.5.14

D'village 2014.

                                     

First of all, let me take a deep-long-and heavy breath. Because right now I'm going to detonate you a story which actually would take hundred of papers to i retell on. So i would just make it as simplest as i can. Deal?

SOOO FINALLY, The good news is alhamdulillah D'Village ITS 2014 finally over successfully! Which means, all of those sleepless night, rushing on finish my task in almost every day, get home so late, not having much time with my family, wake up so early in every Sunday, etc, will over too! :')

I WILL DEFINITELY MISS THOSE BUNCH OF TOGETHERNESS MOMENTS when I can spend whole time working with my friends, preparing things to sell, going here and there for taking the consumption/buying something/picking something or someone, staying at campus until midnight, sending text, got a slur from the participant who's not satisfied with our work until my senior's crying, working behind the scene (being an admin) for the official twitter (honestly, this's what makes my phone not so quiet recently hahaha :p) and many others which I can't mention it one by one.. since it was too much.

In this kind of moment, I found how, kebersamaan adalah sebuah harga yang tak bisa dibayar hanya dengan materi. I realize how lucky am I to have friends like them. Aku ngerasain betapa pentingnya memiliki teman-teman yang bisa kamu andalkan, ataupun sebaliknya, mereka percaya kalo kamu bisa diandalkan. Lak katanya Bruno Mars seh, you can count on me like 1,2,3 and I can count on you like 4,3,2. 

Behind every hard time, you can see the true color of everyone. Kita bisa tau siapa yang selalu ada dan yang enggak, sapa yang mau ngabisin waktu sama kita bersusah payah, dan siapa yang gamau. Kita bisa bertukar berbagai macam hal. Cerita, tangis, tawa, kegalauan, kesedihan, kisah kasih, lagu kesukaan (jadi keinget barisan para mantannya Ica dan bibila) makanan, minuman, uang, bensin, dan yang paling penting adalah waktu bersama.

Dari yang pada suatu hari, tiba-tiba kami semua para MABA dipanggil ke lapangan volly,  terus dikasih tau, kalo D'village itu H-sebulan tapi publikasinya belum jalan sama sekali... layaknya negara api menyerang. kesibukan kami di kampus pun tetiba bertambah dengan kegiatan untuk persiapan dvillage. Setiap minggu pagi, kita jualan di Taman Bungkul.

Keinget banget, waktu itu diajak kaforkom TDku buat jengukin anak-anak TM terus cari-carian sama bebeb yuyung di diknas, pulangnya yuyung mau keruma ica sama jija buat nginep terus bikin dele disana, padahal udah malem :O Sualuut kok. Terus diceritain kalo disana anak-anak rame ikutan bikin, iri cila gapernah diijinin buat nginep.

Terus sampek akhirnya dvillage makin deket lagi, jualannya ga cuman jualan aja, tapi ditambahin ada garage sale, dan publikasi juga, di Bungkul nyebar2in pamflet sama Derai, udah hmmm gimana ya kita kan pemalu, pdhal pamfletnya cuman 20 lembar...tapi habisnya bs berjam-jam.... ya gimana lagi, kan anu, apa namanya, kita sambil disuruh meneliti, itu anak2 target kita nggak, SMA SMK.

Jadi, tiap ada perawakan2 ABG2 gitu, aku sama derai menggelar rapat kerja, itu perlu didatengin gakya hmm dikasik gakya, terus kalo kita sudah bikin kesepakatan, kita harus SKSD..SKSD gitu.. nanya nanya, aku pernah longor pek, kan ada gumbulan anak cowok, tak tanyai

 "dek kelas berapa" terus aku dngernya, mereka kelas 10. terus yauda aku langsung mulai promosi, tapi aneh, derai itu diem aja. Habis ngomong narasinya,
 aku tanya lagi, kamu kelas 10 kan? terus adeknya jawab,
"enggak mbak..kelas 7..." terus ya......

aku sanggup apa, aku cuman bisa ketawa, terus minta maaf... terus pas aku noleh derai, derainya uda ngguyu2.... terus ngasih tau, kalo dia dengernya itu emang kelas 7 =)) untungnya... urat maluku itu bisa disambung lepasin jadi...... aku berusaha melupakan......

padahal sebenernya aku nglintek.. terus nyadar, betapa irinya aku sama ular waktu itu yang bisa ganti kulit hiks hiks. OHYA, gak cuman itu aja. ada kenyataan pahit pek setelah membagi brosur2 itu. Masa pas kita jalan balik ke basecamp, kita nemuin warna-warni kertas kita di jalanan, terinjak-injak. VIX mereka keji. Sekarang aku tau rasanya jadi mbak-mas SPG </3 

Sewaktu promosi di Bungkul itu. ada mas2 dari sebuah sekolah yang mendatangi tempat kita berdiri, terus nanya2 gitu, katanya belum dapet posternya kita. Karena aku gatau apa-apa, yaudah terus aku nanya kestari, karena waktu itu Jatu blm bales, aku juga tanya Ovan (terus masa aku dibilang modus) --"

Setelahnya aku tau kalo itu uda dpt surat tp blm dpt poster, akhirnya aku sama Jatu berkelana mencari sekolahannya, and then ternyata gampang ditemuin. trs pdhal waktu dijalan itu kita uda gopoh2 dewe, soalnya masa kita kesana cuman bw poster tanpa amplop dan tetek bengeknnya. Kita bayangin pak satpamnya itu galak, TUnya ruwet, terus poster kita gakboleh ditempel. </3

Tapi ternyata, sungguh pek, suudzon itu tidak baik! Pak satpam.e iku wapikan tenan, uwunyu yo tu? koyok onde2? Jatu aja ngefans abis2an sama bapaknya, sampek d tweet pake emot org falling in lope! Gimana enggak? Bapaknya itu baik pol, gahoeelll, suaranya dalem, kalah wes afgan, dan trendy abis, kacamata hitamnya itu memantulkan pelangi, kayak kalo oli kalo kececeran di jalan raya itulo! joe taslim ga ada apa-apanya!

Hmmm pas dulu itu pernah juga pek. Kamu tau? Kelasku eker! Kenapa? soalnya ya, pas itu, dvillage itu udah yaaa... H-3 minggu apa berapa gitu, nhah, kan ada libur ya kuliahnya, nhah beberapa temen cowok kelasku itu, ada yang mau jalan2, terus egar itu nyindir2 kan, terus akhirnya kreess bentar kok tapi, habis itu yo, suangaaar cak tapi anak2 cowok itu, pas Minggu nya, padahal mereka jek ket nyampek, tapi tetep dateng jualan di Bungkul! Sangar gak? 

Terus... ada lagi ada lagi!
Kan waktu itu dibagi tim, buat roadshow ke sekolah2 lingkup Surabaya-Gresik-Sidoarjo ya. Nhah, kebetulan hari Jumat itu kelasku ga ada kuliah pas siang. terus tiba2 bosnya anak TCC masuk ke kelas. Gatau kenapa, tiba2 dia itu emosi. terus ngilokin yang tulisan ada di papan itu guyon. Yaudah, berhubung aku ga terima dibilang gitu, padhal niat nya kordesian itu baik, kita bersatu biar bisa kerja sama maksimal, malah dibilang guyon. Ya tak bilang, kita lo gak guyon. 

Ohya, aku sekalian mau klarifikasi, aku sedih lho, kalo kordesian selalu dianggap suka bercanda. Ya dibalik ketawa2nya kita, kita itu juga kerja. Gatau, ini sialnya kita apa gimana, tapi mesti kalo ada yang jelek2, kita itu ketangkep, padahal kita itu belum tau apa2. Udah 3kali kita dateng, jeg, diem, cuman berdiri dan ngelihat, terus kita dimarahi petinggi sesama kita. "Kalian itu udah tak bilangi berapa kaliiiii seeeeeeee" nadanya tuinggi. padahal kita itu baru aja ndek situ. Jujur aja, aku sedih, mungkin temanku yang lain juga, soalnya kesannya gimana gitu. Tapi, kita ngerti, mungkin mereka capek.

Oke lanjut! Yaudah, akhirnya pembagian timnya diperbarui. Kita dibagi sama rata. Ada yang ke daerah Gubernur Suryo. Sama ada yang ke daerah Margorejo. Waktu itu, aku kedapetan sama Tara, Vio, Derai, Hisyam, Arga, Palom, Riris, Yanuar, hayooo cil ada lagi gak?? Hmm kayaknya udah. Pertamanya kita itu kepisah, aku sm Tara, Vio, Riris, nunggu di depan RSAL. sambil nunggu kita kuliner lhooo, aku dibelikan getuk 10 biji pek sama Tara Vio. :D Yaudah habis itu kita datengin sekolah2 yang kita tuju. Kita ditolak, gara2 kesiangan lah, ini lah, itu lah. Terus kita selundupan lewat murid2nya, terus cowok2nya sholat Jumat. Ohya, yang lucu pas di SMA 10, temanku yang Yanuar itu kan anak kelahiran 1998, terus katane tmnku yang lain "Akhirnya Yanuar tadi ketemu teman sepantarannya" =)) 

Selesainya itu, kita ke.... Richeese Factory! And it was my first time. Lumayan lhoo, kalo kamu punya kartu pelajar/mahasiswa, langsung aja dateng smpk sblm jam 17.00, 7000 uda dpt ayam dengan level kepedesan yg bisa dipilih sesuai selera. Dan disini rame banget, aku aja ketemu temenku 3 dlm sehari! Nhaaahhh, wkwkwk aku gamau ceritain terjadi apa disini, tapi sungguhan sebenernya iki luwucu banget =)) Apalagi part nya Arga sama Hisyam. =))))))))))))))))))))))) Penasaran? Coba sendiri kesana we :p

Aduh aku capek cerita. Tak skip-skip in aja ya.

-Tender Cup-
Kan H-1 ya. berhubung aku jadi sie perkap, dan gabut banget. akhirnya aku nyari2 kerjaan, waktu sore itu, aku ke sekret, terus eh langsung dapet. aku disuruh nemenin Ismi buat ngeprint, mboooh buanyak pokoknya. Tapi, terahir2nya, aku ngeprint file2nya peserta, sendirian, soalnya Ismi itu masih nunggu file yang buat panitia selese dibuat. Aku pinjem motornya Egar pas itu, ke Orents, tmpt print deket kampus. 
Kan itu udah jam 5an ya, dan sebelumnya ak uda dtg kesitu sm Ismi. Dateng2 , mas-masnya sana itu juahat kok
"Lho mbak, ngapain se kok mbalek?"
"Aku mau ngeprint mas, buanyaak"
"Lho tapi kita gamau"
"Ayota massssssssss, tunjukin caranya, tak kerjain sendiri wis"
"Gak wes, tapi belikno nasgor 2 sek. yaopo?"
"Ywes gppa"
"haha gak gak mana se"
Terus akhirnya aku mulai menulusuri file-file laknat itu. Pas brangkat td aku uda nyatetin mana yang harus di print. dan pas dibukain, ya Allah, nggak terima 3-5 lembar ada yg nyampek 90 lembar u____u 
uda cuman bawa uang dikit banget........... terus tb2 belum separuhnya ngeprint, masnya bilang
"Wih sak rim mbak wesan"
"Sak rim brp lembar mas?"
"500 lembar"
"sumpaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah??? habis piro yo mas kiro2"
"300 rb paleng mbak"

Jeruk banget! Uang cuman hmm ga nyampek separuhnya. Akhrnya, ngprint2 file selanjutnya aku lebih mawas diri, dan galau. Bahkan masnya pun ikutan galau. eh terus tb2 di tengah2 suasana genting, Yunita tb2 muncul! Ya Allah,, bagaikan oase di tengah gurun pasir., SUMPAH TAMBAH BIKIN GALAU! akhirnya kita nelponin mbak dita sama Selma terus, kemriyek, trs kita sambil nyepiki 2 mas iku, promosi acara klosingg, terus maksa masnya  buat jd sponsorship, trs kita janji bakal masang fotonya guwedi alias buesar. tapi sumpah, masnya php kabeh kok -_-

Yaudah akhire selesai, waktunya itung2an. Aseli ya, masnya iku melete banget. Pas mejet2 kalkulator itu, eskpresine welek sok2an terkejut terus, trs nggremeng "158 ribu...." "179ribu..." terus aku sama bebeb yuyung panik2 dewe, dan berusaha ngintip2.
"MAS Habis piro?"
"dua ratus......................."
tapi gak kok gak. masnya guyu2 dewe. dan akhrnya kita sadar kita hanya ditipu. Saat2 terakhir itu spot jantung banget. Masnya, laknat kok. Bahkan pas kita mau keluar parkiran, kita yo digudo dipanggil2
"Mbaaaak mbaaak, ada seng ketinggalan"
"Mbak flash disk.e"

Tapi sori jeh, I'm not a fool, aku melihat flash diskku tergenggam manis ditangan utuk utuk :3
Karena, pikiran ku udah gak jernih dan tenaga ku terkuras gara2 sesi tes jantung. sesampainya di kampus lagi. aku ketemu Ovan, terus aku ditemenin ambil laptop, terus kita kabur, ya van ya? Nyampeeeek luama :D
Terus pas balek lagi, kita langsung bantu2 lg kok. Aku sih ngeprint2 sm Mbak ade, kalo Ovan gatau nempel2 apa gt sama selma.  Terus tetiba aku di jemput. dan yaudah aku pulang. nah ini longor lagi.
Pas nyampek rumah, aku rogoh2 sakuku. Dan aku menemukan kunci sepeda dan kunci kayak kunci pintu gitu, dan ternyataaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... :O :O itu kuncinya Ovan tak bawa pulang, untung banyak yang nginep di kampus =))

terus hari H. awalnya aku gabut. soalnya aku dpt shift habis makan siang. tapi pas kerja juga gak berasa kok, gabut banget. aku malah sering main sm bella, ovan, yuyung. jatu malah bisa bubuk lama. malah pas itu aku sisan bisa main volly sama Al sama widik, terus malah aku dapet kenalan baru, namanya Mamang (eehhh??) dan hari itu kuakhiri dengan lipet2 kertas kue, beli kertas yang kurang 10, dan bersih2 buat persiapan TCC besoknya! :D

TCC, BCC, Closinggg lebiiih puuuuuuuuuuuuecaaaaaaaahhh lagi. Capek-capek bareng. Jatu, Icak, Hendra, Arga, Cornel, Temon, Bebeb Yuyung, Dawas, Tiara, Bulb, Bibib, Derai, Vio, Sulal, Riky, Tara, Oni, Bangkit, Egar, dan lain-lainnya yang belum tak sebutin, tanpa mengurangi rasa hormat dan salutku sama kalian, kalian semua fix dan suwungguuuhhhh orang2 sangar! intinya hmmmmmmmm, lak katane wong jowo sih, aku tresno kare kowe. Yaaa Kapan2 kalo ada waktu, cila tambahin lagi ceritanya. Okeey? Nih bonus 2 foto yaa ;-)


Ngglendot waktu TCC


Diploma Sipil @ Makrab FTSP :D

Mungkin belum sepenuhnya. Tapi kita lagi belajar buat jadi deket satu sama lain kok. Ini masih awal. Awaaaaaaaaaaaaaal banget. Ada sebuah quote yang bilang, “Sometimes, reaching out and taking someone's hand is the beginning of a journey." dan bukankah kita udah pernah berpegangan tangan satu sama lain, 2 kali lhoo malaah! Waktu hari terahir OK2BK dan waktu kita MITnight. Iya kan? :D Aku yakin semuanya hanya masalah waktu dan kesadaran individunya kita sih ya. Seapatis atau diemnya orang, jangan lupa, kita pasti butuh orang lain, karena Allah pun sudah sampaikan itu. And as ridiculous as it may sound, sometimes all any of us need in life is for someone to hold our hand and walk next to us. Masalahnya, hanya tinggal siapa yang mau mengulurkan dan siapa yang mau diberi uluran tangan. Simple. Sooo after all, Makasih , dvillage 2014! In shaa Allah, see you again on next year ya :)

gonna miss you lots.

4.5.14

Being productive

Today's portrait!
Today, I'm going to retell you about things I did. Not something special, but I won't let this moment just going away from my pile of dust. So, D'village (event that held by my major) is getting closer, it's next week!! wow! Which means, we as the organizer, should work harder for any things that haven't fixed, including the fund's problem. That's why, we had a way out, by selling drinks and foods in Car Free Day Darmo. If I'm not wrong, it's been the 5th time since our first, it's last time for this year... and I had a great experience today :-D

The story was.. Icak as the director of its selling project was bored to make our weekly menu,  so then.. we changed our plan with the new one. Guess whaaatttt's it?
1...
2..
3.. 

Taraa! We sell banana-cheese fried, cutie pancake, bread toast, grilled sausage, grilled meatball, and cireng. And you know what? We made it ourself, exclude the sausage and cireng. So, on the Saturday ba'da Magribh, I went to Icak's house. I planned to sleep over there since we got lotta things to do, and we should get a good place on the Sunday Morning!

After arrived there, we prayed Isha and went to do grocery! It was so fuuun, since i went to here and there, just two with Icha, surfing on Icak's motorcycle, felt the night's breeze passing through my veins while seeing the moon's light (alay).  Firstly, we bought banana. Guess what, after bidding for some couple times, the seller gave us price (which i think) it was so cheap. After that, we were looking for some complement needs, such as the plastic, the toothpick, and the oil paper. And next destination was... finding cheese and palm sugar! then we found for the flour, oil, milk. Lastly, Icak treated me an avocado juice. Thanks a lot caki :3

After finished the "what we need to buy"'s checklists! We back home and prepared the whole things that we need. We made dough, we move the milk, we placed the sugar, we grate the cheese, we slice some banana, just times then... two more of our friends were coming! They were Temon and Cornel. We tried to cook our product. Just to make sure, that it does turn into something delicious. I'm forget to tell you, that time, it was already 1 AM in an early day.. ha.. ha.. we jokes and laughed for some silly and random things we did =))) Since yah..uda jam goblok gitu kan jam jam segitu itu.

After everything has packed on, Temon and Cornel asked us to go outside, can you imagine that? we haven't sleep all day along, we should wake up before 3AM, so we supposed to quickly sleep. but we weren't! We went to Ciputra BUT it was soooo fuuun, to pass by an empty freeway in an early daay. The air's breeze was soooooooo relaxing. I even took my head outside the car's window. Slowly screaming..... and really got happy in a time. I-somehow- feel calm and warm being surrounded with my friends.

around 2.30AM i got sleepy and...finally fall asleep. I heard sometimes Cornel and Temon were so noisy =)) I thought they don't know which way to pass. And times then I slightly woke up and we're already at The new airport =)) What the.... ?? =)) I heard they asked to me and Icha, should we down and taking some photos or not. But they said, me and Icha answered no, please guys, kita kan ngelindur itu jawabnya =))) We even didn't realize it was rainy so hard that morning wkwkwk

Just then, Suddenly, it's nearly to 4AM, and we haven't arrived at Icak's home. We got panicked and called Mandol. and Tiara also called us. =)) Some complicated things happened then. Untiil tadaaa, we arrived at Darmo.

Some unlucky things happened to us at first. the stove wouldn't work. the floor was watery, etc. But times then, things got better and were under our control :3 we started to make our foods! packed this packed that. frying this frying that. grilled this and grilled that. even we got some hot-oil splashing! wuuuw So complete right? The hot menu last morning was..the grilled meatball! u guys should try sometimes, okey ? <3

                                     
afterrr tired selling things. Me and kordesian played the paper-boat. We made wishes and float them. And then we packed, and we went back. by the way, I was driving for Temon and Cornel because that two were so sleepppyyyyy, and i thought it's ok. I felt like a mommy picking for her sons that time haha. Arrived at Icak's home we did the dishes, counted the money (yeeeyyyy!) and had a super comfy sleep for 4hours!

And i went home. 

Though it was so tiring.....I'm - seriously - really enjoying it. Alhamdulillah, thanks Allah for giving me chance to experience things like this, May i could always be productive like this B-)

3.5.14

Dear Allah,

made it this afternoon


".......
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing You again oh no
Once again
......"


hmm, have you ever felt like...somehow - you're far from Allah? Iyaa, Allah itu emang selalu ada dan memantau kita dari Arsy-Nya. Tapi, kitanya gitu yang lagi ngejauh dari-Nya. I've felt it, many times.  Dan ketika kondisi seperti itu datang, rasanya seperti ada bagian dari dalam diri saya yang kurang. Seperti apa yang sedang sayajalanin itu kurang bermakna, kurang berbobot, kurang berlandasan, dan sama sekali tidak bertujuan. And it doesn't feel good at all..

Saya juga gaktau kenapa this kind of situation masih bisa datang, padahal saya tau sendiri kalo saya sedang berada pada situasi seperti ini, itu akan membuat saya merasa gak benar, sedih, dan paint a deeply hole dalam hati saya. It impacts me a lot, sort of:
  •  ibadah saya kurang berkualitas. Sudah sholat, doa, mengaji, dan setelahnya, yaudah bless... balik lagi ngerasa, awang-awang
  •  apa yang saya kerjain itu, gatau mau diarahkan kemana. Seperti, iya saya tau, saya habis ini harus ngerjakan tugas, makan, tidur, pergi, dan lain-lain. Tetapi dalam benak saya, saya bertanya-tanya, "ini buat apa sih sebenernya?" 
  •  saya merasa menjadi manusia paling berdosa,tapi saya gak mau melakukan perbaikan untuk hal itu. Tetep aja, ibadah saya jalanin sekedar sarana untuk nggugurin kewajiban. 
  •  dan masih banyak hal mengganjal lain yang bikin saya trapped dalam keadaan emosional yang kurang baik. Uring-uringan, diem, atau melongo aja.  padahal sebenernya saya cuman lagi ngerasain lelah sama ramainya dunia.

Dan sadly, setiap bulan saya harus mengalami fase ini. Since, I'm already baligh. I should through a period when i can't connect with Allah intensely. Ibadahku menjadi terbatas. Dan akhirnya, poin pertama yang aku ceritakan terjadi dan terulang kembali dalam diri saya :-(

Ya saya sendiri sangat menyadari kalo saya ini masih jauh dari kata baik dan sempurna. karena, memang kan kesempurnaan hanya milik Allah SWT seorang. Dan ya seperti ini lah.. saya juga bisa tergoda dengan buaian dan keindahan dunia yang padahal sifatnya hanyalah ilusi dan sementara. Menomor sekiankan kepentingan agama dibawah kepentingan lain.

Menurut saya, memang kesadaran akan pentingnya untuk "berkoneksi" dengan Sang Pencipta itu timbul dari dorongan naluri dalam diri kita sendiri, kalau ya memang kita butuh Dia untuk menunjukkan mana yang benar dan mana yang salah. kalau ya memang kita butuh uluran tangan-Nya untuk dapat menjalani hidup kita dengan baik. Dan membangun koneksi itu kadang bukanlah hal yang mudah ketika kita sudah terpaut dengan jarak. dianalogikan sebuah koneksi (sinyal) hape, ketika kita sedang berada jauh dari pancaran sinyal tentu sinyal kita akan menjadi lemah, buruk, atau malah  tiada kan? namun berbeda lagi apabila kita berada didekat kawasan pancaran sumber sinyalnya, tentu status sinyal di hape kita akan menjadi bagus dan kecepatan koneksinya menjadi cepat. Dan menurut saya seperti itu juga sistim kerja koneksi kita dengan Tuhan kita.

Bila kita sudah berada dekat dengan Sumber kita, tentu kita akan merasakan betapa cepat sinyalnya dapat dimanfaatkan. Ketenangan, kualitas ibadah dan lain-lain. Oleh karena itulah, kita harus memaintain koneksi itu agar selalu baik.. dengan tidak meninggalkan ibadah yang Allah perintahkan kepada kita.

Dari sebuah tulisan yang pernah saya baca.
"Ketika kita berjalan untuk mendekatkan diri kepada Allah, maka Allah akan berlari untuk mendekati kita" Subhanallah, in shaa Allah, aamiin

and yes, God, I'm missing You again.